The Secretary

Chapter seventeen

As Berlin, Darnell and I sat in my kitchen the doorbell rang. Darnell wen to open it and was greeted with the people from the furniture company. The party is gonna start at 8:30 so that gives us a hour to get ready. Berlin followed me into the bathroom that connected to my room. "So how old is Darnell?" I hear her say. I turn to her with a wicked grin. "I'm not sure actually. I'll ask him tonight." She turns and heads into her newly furnished room.

I quickly shower then throw on some cute grey leggings and a white t shirt. I slide on my white Gucci slide and head downstairs. Darnell is walking back in with five boxes of pizza. I sit at my counter and look at him. "How old are you?" He looks over at me and smiles. "20." I nod and grab my purse. Reaching inside I pull out a a honey backwood and a bag of weed. "You smoke?" He nods at me and sits next to me. As I roll up the weed Berlin joins us in the kitchen. She's showered and changed into some cute shorts that had a smiley face on the butt, and a pink top. I catch her eye as Darnell attempts to hide the fact that he was checking her out. "So when's everyone coming?" She asks as she grabs a slice of pizza. "They should be here soon."

I light my backwood and take a few puffs before passing it to Darnell. He coughs a few times after the first hit. "Where did you get this?" I wink at him. "It's good?" He nods as he hits it again. He passes it back to me and I hit it before looking up at Berlin. I offer her the backwood and she timidly takes it. Her fist hit has her coughing, the second one is much smoother even though she still coughs. "First time?" I ask her. She nods and smiles shyly. "You did much better then me for your first time." Darnell says to her. "My first time I hit the blunt too hard and threw up." I laugh as I blow out the smoke. "I had cotton mouth so badly my first time." I take a hit from the backwood. "No matter how much water I drank my mouth was still dry." They both laugh at me.

The doorbell goes off and I walk over to open it. As I do I happen to exhale the smoke and greet my visitor with a face full of cherry kush. My mom coughs dramatically and waves her hands around. Behind her stands a very good looking older man. I invite them in and she introduces him as the man she's been telling me about. "My names Roberto." He says coolly. I put the roach of my backwood in a plastic bag and then place it back in my purse. My mom pulls a bottle of wine from her purse and Berlin hands my mom a cup from the cabinet. "I'm Berlin." She says to my mother with a smile. "Oh so your the beautiful young lady my daughter was telling me about." Berlin smiles at me. I leave the four of them in my kitchen as I go to open my door again. Blossom greets me with a rib crushing hug and a bag of weed.

"A house warming gift." I laugh at her subtle word choice and lead her to the kitchen. Berlin locks eyes with her and quickly looks away. I make sure to ask her about it later. My house was full of noise and laughter as people enjoyed themselves. Julie showed up shortly after Blossom. There was music playing in the background as I led Berlin to my favorite spot in the house. We walked into the back porch/room area. The windows were open and there was a nice breeze coming through. I slid down the wall and patted the floor next to me. She sat down and looked at me. "You know Blossom?" She looks away for a quick moment then nods.

"I met her about six months ago. Jontavion and I were both new to the group and she came with him. He seemed to have no instrest in her but she was attached to his hip." As I listen to her I light up another backwood. "As Jontavion stayed behind after the meeting was done to talk to the mentor, I saw her outside. She smiles at me so I decided to go talk to her. She was fresh face." I nod and hand her the wood. She takes it from me and puffs, she coughs before hitting it again. "I asked her how long had she been with him. Simple conversation for the most part." She passed me back the wood. "She said there's no harm in telling a girl she'll never see again what was bothering her." I turned and laid down so my legs would be against the wall and I could still see Berlin.

"She told me that she was working for Jontavion as a receptionist by day and by night she was his 'slut'..." my heart beats fast and I hit the blunt again to calm down. "What did she mean by that?" Berlin looks at me and then takes the backward from me taking a big hit. She was coughing so bad I had to lay her back. When she was okay again she looked sick. "They were having sex. He was her son and she was his sub." My heart stops and my mind makes me relive the night we had sex. I find myself thinking about the way he took over and didn't let me control anything. "It makes so much sense." I say aloud as I put the backwood out. "What?" Berlin asks as she stares at me. "The night I let that man defile me, he was so controlling and I liked it." I whisper the last part and she places a hand on my shoulder.

"Hey let's go eat some pizza and I pour you a few shots on that patron the she devil bought." I smile at the young girl and follow her from the back room to the kitchen. "Hey Berlin." "Yes?" We walk into the loud kitchen and find my mom standing there watching everyone. "I'm proud at how strong you are. Especially when we were at the restaurant and I gave you that champagne." She stops walking and turns to me. She throws her arms around my neck and whispered a thanks. "That means more than you know." She walks over to Darnell and I smile when his eyes light up at the sight of her. "Mija." I turn to my mom and find her holding out a shot to me. I gladly take it from her and down it. "No chaser?" She asks as I pour another. "Nope."

It was around midnight when everyone except my mom left. I kept my distance from Blossom not that she noticed, she was busy talking cars with Roberto. I have to admit I was a bit drunk on this Monday night. As I plopped on my lazy boy I saw my mom smiling as Roberto kissed her forehead. Berlin went up to her room after everyone left. I kissed my mom goodnight and gave her and Roberto a few blankets for the night. Before I went upstairs I grabbed the bottle of patron off the counter. Once I was in the safety of my room I finally let myself feel everything. I was hurt and angry with both Jontavion and Blossom. The both of them could have told me, I would expect this type of behavior from him. She was supposed to be my friend. Before I aloud myself to do something dumb, I turned on my speaker and started to play some music. I made sure it wasn't too loud before I drowned myself with shots straight out of the bottle.