Recap: Five was being dismissive about Hazel and Cha-Cha attacking the house which sparked an argument between him and (Y/n).
Reader's POV
When I got back to the Academy I begrudgingly made my way up the steps and to Five's room. I'm not sure what I expected, but part of me hoped to find him fast asleep in his bed. I must have been in some sort of hysteria. I collapsed on his bed and slept in as long as I could until I was awoken by Pogo.
"Miss (Y/n)? It's nearly 9 o'clock, you should get up now." Pogo said as he gently shook my arm.
I sat up and rubbed the sides of my temple. My head hurt like crazy. "Did Five come home at all last night?" I asked in a low whisper.
"I apologize, but I'm afraid not, Miss (Y/n)." Pogo sighed.
"Five, you peice of shit." I mumbled angrily.
"Language."
"Sorry, Pogo," I laughed bitterly.
"I'll leave you to erm... get ready for the day." Pogo offered a sympathetic smile and turned to leave.
I plopped back down on the bed and took in Five's scent. I was much calmer now that I was well rested, and now had time to fully process everything Five had said to me.
"We're not in the apocalypse or part of the commission anymore, (Y/n). No one said we had to be partners forever."
I repeated his words over and over again in my mind. They stung worser than anything else in the world. I sighed angrily and covered my eyes with the palms of my hands in an attempt to stop the water works. He didn't mean everything he said, right? He couldn't have. If he did, then what was the point of keeping me around for so long?
Maybe he just held onto me because he felt sorry for me. Five was all I had left for the longest time and he knew it. Even if I had the other Hargreeves back, it wasn't the same. They're all grown up now and don't need me the way they did back then. I had no family to go back to, and according to Five, I was of no use to him anymore either. What was I even going to do once they stopped the apocalypse? I had no previous dreams or hopes for the future other than settling down with Five and reconnecting with the Hargreeves siblings.
It was hard to admit, but even with everyone around me again, I felt more lonelier than ever. No one really needed me anymore. I no longer had a purpose. I had fulfilled my role as the Hargreeves' childhood friend.
I never got my answers regarding my family or if Five ever felt anything towards me.
In the end I gained nothing.
I wanted to scream and throw everything out the window. The frustration from not having any closure was becoming to hard to keep bottled up. I angrily jumped off the bed, threw the door open, and ran around the hallway.
"Klaus?" I called out, holding back tears. I felt like I was on the brim of spilling off of my emotions out. I ran down the stairs and searched the kitchen and the living rooms. "Allison?" Please, I don't care who, I just need to talk to someone."Vanya?"
I found myself in that one particular room with the mini bar and let out a shakey breath. I made my way behind the counter and selected a random bottle. I flicked the cap off and aggressively gulped down a few hungry sips. The flavor was absolutely terrible, but at that point I couldn't care less.
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Wherever You Are (Umbrella Academy Five x Reader)
Fanfiction(Y/n) was one of the lucky 43 children mysteriously born on October 1, 1989. Her parents however, refused to give her up to Hargreeves, but her father still allowed him to train her. Things were going well for (Y/n), until a series of events leads t...
