LASTLY, MY FIRST

Part 9 | Us

JENNIE

Can I say how lucky I am for having Lisa in my life right now?

I know how people look at her. I am aware of her playgirl image who bangs whoever she wants in school or clubs before. I know how girls would still drool over her even if she's already holding my hand or kissing and hugging me in public.

I also know how she's good of a person inside and out. I am aware too that she has changed a lot the moment she and I started this thing between us. I am sure of what she shows me like all the care and love are real. One thing I am not sure of is me. Myself. I don't know when I can give Lisa's needs. I am afraid. I am afraid because I am already falling in love with her. I am afraid she might not like me when i give in. She might be savoring me now, then tomorrow she'll find another food to eat. You know what I mean. I am scared. She's so good-looking. She has this superb sex appeal. She can get whoever she wants. Sometimes I'm really wondering why she's into me.

I am scared. Scared of falling deeply with her and might get hurt. I have never been in a relationship. I am not sure if i can handle it well.

It's been 4 days after I undergo lasik treatment. I never wanted this as i am already contented with my glasses, but Lisa really insisted. So instead of complaining, i should be really thankful.

She's taking care of me since my eyes needed to be covered for a few days after the operation. Today is my schedule to the doctor so he would asses if they can already remove the cover so I can see freely and clearly.

Lisa won't be able to accompany me today to the hospital since she has an exam on one of her major subjects in Archi. She apologized but I told her not to worry since we can call the Doctor for a home consultation and check up instead of traveling to the hospital.

The doctor came and luckily, today is also Lisa's helper's schedule to clean the house and laundry her clothes. So i have someone with me on her apartment. The doctor arrived and after he checked my eyes, he assured me that my sight is already safe to see the world and no need for plasters. I also asked him if i can cook already and he approved. He was surprised actually of my fast recovery. I am so happy to see the world without wearing a frame with 700 grade lenses.

I decided to cook pasta amd steak for dinner to surprise Lisa when she gets home. While cooking, i giglled when I realized something. We're like married couple in one house. Funny but i felt a romantic excitement inside me imagining I am serving Lisa with delicious dinner tonight.

She arrived home and went directly in the living room and laid her body on the couch.

"Hi sexy!" I whsipered to her ear when I sat beside her while my hands travel from her shoulder to her chest.

She opened her eyes and got surprised seeing my eyes without covers already.

"Jen! Oh my god. You look even more prettier without wearing glasses. How are you? Can you see clearly now? Can you see me clearly?" She hugged me when she felt my touch and looks really happy seeing me.

"I can see clearly how handsome you are, Manoban." I told her.

I grabbed her hand and brought her to the dining area.

Her eyes widened when she saw the food I prepared.

"Wow! You cooked all these?" She asked while back hugging ma and resting her chin on my shoulder.

"Yeah, this is the least  i can do to thank you for everything, Lisa." I told her.

"Jen, you don't need to repay me for everything I do or give to you. Just let me." She whispered.