LASTLY, MY FIRST

Part 31 | Milk Ice Cream & Cheesecakes

LISA

Eli and I arrived in Seoul around 7pm. We headed straight to my house in Gangnam first to drop my luggage and other stuff since I have to go somewhere else after I brought him home. I bought cheesecake for Jennie from France. I don't know why she's really into it lately. Before bringing Elijah to her, we grabbed 3 gallons of milk ice cream first in a convenience store just a few blocks away from them.

"Da, I wonder why Mom keeps eating a lot lately. Especially those milk ice cream." My son told me as he hugs my waist while I pay for the ice cream.

"Your Mom really eats a lot, son. Especially Thai food. I remember before we had you and we're in Thailand, god, she could finish all the food at the night market. You want to visit your gramps, grams and Uncle Bam soon?" I told and asked him and he nodded. I really wish to take them to Thailand with me once I start my own Archi office there after a few months.

We arrived at their house and saw Jennie cooking in the kitchen. Our son hugged him so tight and she almost cried missing him.

After their moment, Elijah took a bath. Jennie smiled at me and she was surprised seeing twenty boxes of mini cheesecake and the milk ice cream we bought for her.

She ran to me and hugged me tight too. My body reacted fast and I can't explain this heat running to my veins. Especially when her muff rubbed my penis unintentionally.

"Your son is already wondering why you eat a lot lately, Jen." I said and she just laughed still hugging me.

"I missed you too." My heartbeat stopped when she said that. Why Jennie? She didn't removed her hands from my nape.

"I missed you too. How I wish we had you with us." I told her with our lips almost brushed each other.

"Let's eat. I know you two are hungry already. But I want to eat one cheesecake, can I?"She said cutely.

"Of course, it's all yours." I winked at her.

The three of us ate after Elijah took a bath. He kept telling stories about our vacation. Jennie is so happy listening to our son. How I wish we can have a vacation just us three. I want to bring them to Switzerland. I want Jennie to breathe with the beautiful nature there. I want to live with them in Thailand. I still remember Jennie wants to live there.

The three of us lied in bed bringing Elijah to sleep in between us. I can't take my eyes off Jennie. I could still remember how we live together before we had Elijah. How we hug each other in bed, talking about our day and the feelings we had for each other. I missed it. I really missed her-----being mine.

My phone rang and it's Suzy. I almost forgot that I have to meet her and our other colleague at the club. You know, we had to celebrate another success we got with that project in Paris. We nailed it.

I kissed my son in the forehead and told Jennie that I had to go and she accompanied me to the door. Our skin touched each other without us noticing until we got goosebumps.

"Thank you for making our Eli really happy, Lis. Thank you for being a responsible parent to him." She said while her arms crossed in her chest. I notice her boobs are getting bigger. Sorry, it's just noticeable. I don't know.

"Anything for you and for Eli, Jen. You know, I am still learning how to be a good parent. I missed four years of his life. What I did lately is not yet enough. It's a long way to go. Maybe until he get married, I'll still consider him as my baby." I said and she chuckled.

I noticed she bit her lip and that sends another unexplainable feeling in my body.

"Stop thinking of the past. What's important is, we're both here for him. What happened doesn't define of who you are as a parent, right? Everything happened for a reason." She said.

"Really?" I asked. I couldn't believe what I am hearing right now. Does this mean, the pain I have caused her is eventually healing?

"Yeah. He loves you so much. And I can see how much you love him as well." She said while leaning on the door as I take a step to go already. But I stopped and teased her.

"So, that means....we can have Elijah number two again? Or maybe let's try for a girl? I mean, look at our son, we are great artists, Jen. Our artwork is undeniably beautiful." I teased her and she just laughed and slapped my shoulder.

"Crazy. Go now. Your Suzy must be waiting for you." Hmmmmm. When she mentioned her name, her face became serious.

I nodded but then she bit her lip again and brushed her hair backwards with her fingers. Jennie, you know my weakness.

You.

Air pushed me to grab her arm when she's about to get inside the house. I pulled her closer to my body. Placed my hand on her waist and the other one to her jaw. I looked at her eyes. Those eyes that made me so in love with her. Then my sight dropped to her lips. I can feel our breath. We could hardly breathe.

I kissed her. Our lips didn't move for like six seconds while we just listen to our heartbeats.

And my phone suddenly rang. Again. Suzy.

Well, Suzy is pretty. She's surely is a good person. I know that she is not a difficult person to love. She is actually showing some interest in me in Paris, but I  don't know..I just don't feel flirting with someone else now. But we'll see.

Looks like I don't have a chance with Jennie anymore since she is with Kai, so, maybe I must start to get to know someone.

If you ask me if I want to get to know Suzy, yes, maybe give it a try. Maybe just a friendly date at first. I don't want to rush things. If I am going to be with another person, I hope she would be my last. I'm turning 27 in a few months and I already want to settle down. But everytime I think of settling down, I don't know why Jennie and Eli are the first to cross my mind.

One day, Lisa....one day. You're going to accept everything. You're going to accept that Jennie and you are meant to be Eli's parents, but not for each other.

I arrived at the club and everyone's having fun. Suzy greeted me and handed a bottle of beer.

We had few conversations. She's actually a good listener. Even if all that comes out from my mouth are all about Jennie and Eli. I noticed she became a bit uncomfortable when I told her that I am still into Jennie. So I stopped talking about my ex-girlfriend and started to asked questions about Suzy.

This Suzy is very feminine. Like she can never break a glass. Her gestures are modest and pure. No wonder why most of men adore her and she has a lot of suitors.

Our colleagues are teasing us already when they noticed Suzy  keeps leaning on me while we talk. Sometimes she would place her hand on my thighs or on my back while explaining something.

But now....not now. Not for us, Suzy. If you are going to keep flirting on me, I will just fuck you for sure and nothing else. Not tonight. Let's get to know each other, yes. But please. Not tonight.

Because my body's heat thrills at the moment is still because of the kiss I had with Jennie earlier. It wouldn't be fair to you.