LASTLY, MY FIRST

Part 24 | Just Dinner, I Swear

JENNIE

I was not surpised already seeing Lisa in the club. But it made me curious why she booked me, not just only tonight but for the rest of the week.

I went out of the club after I fixed myself after the performance. I can see her from afar.
Since when did she learn to smoke.

"When did you start smoking?" I asked her as I walk towards her.

"I do. But not everyday. I am just nervous." She said while sipping the cigarette.

"Stop it. It's bad for your health." I said and she threw it immediately.

She opened the door for me and made sure my seatbelt is buckled.

"What is this? Does your wife know about this? God! Lisa!" I asked her when she got in the car and started driving.

"Yeah. She knows. Don't worry. We're on the process of divorce." She said and smiled.

What? What happened?

"Why?" I asked curiously.

"You will know soon. Is it okay if we have dinner at the hotel where I'm staying?" She asked me and I nodded.

As soon as we arrived inside her room, she removed her shoes and socks.
Shit. I don't know why am I nervous.

So I asked her."So, you hired me for a week? Let's start now?" She sat on the couch with a whiskey in her hand. I went near her and kneeled in between her thighs. I started to touch the cloth on her body but I was surprised when she gripped my wrist to make me stop.

"You already stripped to me a hundred times before. It's not what I need now." She whispered.

She carried me and made me sit on the couch when she heard the doorbell and opened the doors.

The food has arrived. The hotel guy placed everything on the table. She opened the bottle of wine and held my hand so we could start eating.

"Jen, they made me live believing that I am infertile." She laughed.

"What? You're not, Lisa. Why did they do it? Is this the reason why you and Miyeon are having a divorce?" I asked curiously.

"I don't know. Well, not only that. I have been living in a lie. She knows that I will never love her. You know." She said and her eyes starting to get teary. I didn't say a word. I don't know what to say.

"So, here. My father made me believe that you worked as a whore. I am sorry if I didn't listen to you. But Jen, I knew in my heart I was the one. Right? Tell me now. I can feel it. It's too strong. Elijah is mine right?" She's sobbing. She stood up and kneeled between my legs while holding my hand.

All the flashbacks crossed my mind. My tears starts to fall remembering that night.

"Ye- yes. He is yours." I totally cried.

"I am sorry, Jen. I am really sorry. I should've listened to you. I am sorry. It's my fault. I believed them. I am sorry. I really am sorry." She apologized crying. We can't bring back the past anymore, Lisa.

"Let me make it up to you and Elijah. I will make up for the lost time. I promise, I will be a good parent to him, Jen. Please let me take my responsibilities." I don't know what to say. I don't know how to react. I didn't expect it would be this painful.

"Give-. Give me time to process this. Will you? Can you please bring me home now?" I just want to be on my bed and cry. I don't want to talk to anybody.

She brought me home. But I didn't let her in. Lisa hugged me tight when she opened the door for me.
I need some space for a while. Good thing she understood.

I went to my bed and cried. I know that Lisa has a right to Elijah. I am just hurt that after all this years. She just acknowledged him now. Why didn't she fight for me? For us?