Immortality slapped me in the face and said to me figure it out
I was alive
There was sound, noise, laughter, cries and music
I was a fragment of eternity
Pieces of time unfolded before me like patterns of memory
I was aware and unaware at the same time
As I grew into myself I begun to see everything around me
I tasted sweetness, bitterness, sour, bland, soft, hard, crunchy and pain
And I felt movement of skin, water, insects and bugs, soil and shit
I heard sound and music
I felt laughter vibrating through my stomach
And I watched as others like me grow into themselves too
By then I understood I hated noise and I could communicate
There were symbols and gestures my body had to learn how to do
A language that my tongue muscles practiced into perfection
I was a syllable of existence
An entity within itself trying to figure out who I was
And as I grew into myself I believed I could understand my destiny more clearly
Then I realised I had no fucking clue who I was meant to be
Often at times when I fell asleep I came face to face with death
We've had a long relationship it and I
So when death looked at me in my eyes I looked back at it
Because I was light and I was ablaze
My fire consumed darkness
And there was everlasting life in my soul
I was power and a reflection of a deity
So even with the strong cluches of wickedness at my feet I still slipped away like air between fingers
I rose up from my grave and I came back to life again
With just a few words of God all mighty
I was alive
He made me in his own image
In his image I was made and my soul is eternal because of him
When I was born into this earth
Right on the second of my birth
I believe I was the truest reflection of God
It is only when I deviate from that reflection that I lost identity and I forgot who I am
And it took all my life to get back to that true reflection
As for others they never find that identity
But for those that do
I imagine it feels complete
To be absolutely certain and content about who you really are
To see and communicate in relationship with your true self
Maybe that's why I pray
Because I want that for myself
I am still on that journey
I may be a long way to go
But I know am on the right track.
