only angel ✭ h.s.

Three

Idiot.

That's what I am, an idiot.

I spoke one word to Harry all of class only to answer his greeting. It may have something to do with the fact that my mother texted me right after, telling me she had friends coming over for dinner with Liam and me next weekend, and if I embarrass her with my drug issues she would make me regret it.

Ahhh, motherly love.

I need to leave this classroom as soon as possible, I feel suffocated and I want to scream. As soon as class is over I quickly grab my things without even looking at Harry.

I couldn't deal with speaking to anyone right now, my mind was moving too fast and my body wasn't catching up with it. I rush back to my room realizing I'm alone and it's like I can finally breathe again.

Just because you can breathe now doesn't mean somethings not waiting to pull you under.

Shut up, fuck, why doesn't it ever stop. I need a distraction, I can't be alone with my thoughts. Why does this always happen, the smallest things can trigger this tipping point. I won't do it anymore, I need something to stop the screeching in my mind.

All I can do is grab my phone and call the only person who understands why I'm like this. I breathe in through my nose and exhale trying to calm my breathing.

"Ang, are you okay?" I hear Jo's voice over the phone and I relax a little bit. "I need a distraction, Jolene." Is all I say hearing an approving hum from the other end, "I know just what you need babe." I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding knowing soon she would be here to make me forget.

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Jo and I had just arrived at Liam's walking straight through the front door. When she had got back to our room from her classes she hugged me like I was going to disappear.

She knew I struggled to keep myself together after situations like that.

Once she was done comforting me we focused on getting ready, she said and I quote 'If you look like a bad bitch you will feel like one.' She wasn't wrong, I was wearing a tight-fitting silk magenta dress with thin straps, the front was low cut and the bottom fell right on my mid-thigh.

Jolene was in her favorite black long sleeve dress that fit her body perfectly, she was always so beautiful and rarely put any effort into her look.

Liam's apartment was quite packed and it was only ten, Jolene and I decided we weren't going to drink tonight, just have fun.

Sometimes I forget what life looks like without being high or drunk. I liked remembering the happy moments, even if there weren't very many. I promised myself tonight I'd just let go and be happy with her.

There were people littered all throughout the flat, drinking in the kitchen, dancing in the living room, and hanging out in the hallway leading to the backyard. I grabbed Jo's hand pulling her into the group of people dancing deciding that I'd find Liam later.

She wraps her arms around my neck pulling me close and starts swaying her hips seductively. I instinctively grab her hips moving along with her, I missed being close with her. I feel like I've been in my head too much lately.

Just let go.

I lean in and kiss her abruptly, it takes her a second to realize what's going on but as soon as she does she opens her mouth for me. I slip my tongue inside her mouth, her own inviting me and humming at the feeling.

My hands travel down from her hips to her lower back and I find my way to her ass grabbing handfuls. Her hands go from my neck into my hair tugging lightly then pulling away from me.

She looks at me her chest rising and falling, I was staring at her with lustful eyes trying to tell her what I want.

She takes a step back from me tucking her hair behind her ear and smirking at me confirming that she knew exactly what I was doing.

Her skin looked so soft and kissable under the purple lighting, fuck I wanted more of her. I grabbed her wrist pulling her towards the bathroom down the hallway, I push open the door and I'm grateful when I find it empty.

As soon as I slam the door shut I push Jo against the counter grabbing her face and kissing her again. Her hands immediately go into my hair pulling it and I whimper into her mouth.

I run my hands down the sides of her arms slowly until I reach the hem of her dress. I bunch it up at her hips just enough to reveal her underwear. I drag my knuckles on the front of her feeling the wetness I've caused which makes her moan and move her hips against my hand.

"Did you miss me touching you baby?" I say in between kisses and she eagerly nods mumbling against my mouth.

"Been too long Ang, missed you." I push her panties to the side rubbing the pads of my middle and ring finger up and down her heat.

We moan into each other's mouth as I find my way to her clit slowly rubbing circles, loving the way her body melts into mine in front of me.

I was so caught up in what was happening I didn't even hear the door open. "Oh shit, sorry" I quickly let go of Jolene pulling her dress down, I look up to see Harry standing in the doorway with wide eyes.

Even if he was interrupting my good mood with her I couldn't stop myself from looking him up and down. He was wearing a simple white t-shirt and black skinny jeans.

I could see all of his tattoos through the thin material, inspecting them following from his fingertips to his shoulder.

He looked really good there was no denying that but I was busy. His cheeks are bright red and his emerald eyes are clear and surprised as ever.

Annoying eyes for disturbing my night but still very pretty.

Jolene's voice snaps me out of the fucking staring contest I'm having right now wondering why he hasn't shut the door and left. "Umm could you close the door please?"

Harry realizes that she's speaking to him and finally looks away from me, "I'm so sorry the door was unlocked, I- I didn't mean to..." He trails off and slowly steps back giving an apologizing nod and closing the door.

I look at Jolene with a smile and she bursts out laughing, I couldn't help myself but follow along. Even though we were interrupted it felt good to just laugh with her.

She looked at me grabbing my face still giggling, "I don't think I've ever seen someone so traumatized, usually guys would ask to join." I laughed again, Harry wasn't like other guys obviously.

He looked like a deer in headlights. His eyes burned into my memory, I couldn't stop thinking about them.

I shake my head of the thoughts and step away to lock the door and look back at Jo with a smirk.

"So, where were we?"