𝗪𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝗜 𝗦𝗮𝘄 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗪𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗛𝗲𝗿

Part 2 (Killuas POV)

Killuas POV:

I could tell something was wrong with Gon when we met up again, and introduced her to him.. by her I mean my wife.. well soon to be ex wife. I didn't want to marry her.. in fact, I liked Gon for a long time. I just thought that if I married someone, I would get over him.

But that didn't work out so well.

When I found out Gon tried to commit suicide, I knew I had to be with him, I couldn't push my feelings back any longer. So I filed a divorce on her. I wasn't happy with her, I was happy with him

I want to be with him.. for the rest of my life. Weather he loves me back or not. If he doesn't, my feelings will finally be at peace and I can move on.

"WHERE IS HE?! IS HE ALIVE?! LET ME SEE HIM!!" I yelled at the doctor who was refusing to let me in to see him. "Sir you need to calm down. He isn't in any condition to have any visitors-" he was cut off, "K-kil.. k-killua..?" GON! HES ALIVE! "GON! YOURE ALIVE!" I say pushing past the doctor who looks just as shocked as I do.

"K-killua..?" He says squinting his eyes to look at me. I nod my head vigorously, feeling the tears already flowing from my eyes. "Yes Gon, it's me Killua." I say smiling at him. He gives a soft smile back. "Sir, I need you to leave. We need to run some tests on him. Like I said he isn't in any condition to be talking right now. I will call you when he is." "Can I at least stay outside? Please??" He nods his head and ushers me to leave. I looks behind me to look at Gon one last time befor the door closed.

I could hear them talking in there, I couldn't really tell what they were saying.. damn these doors. I need to be with him right now.. and I think he needs me the most too.. you know what. I thought standing up, I'm going to go get him some flowers. The thought made me smile. So I started walking to the entrance. I told the lady where I was going, and that I would be back later, and then I walked out.

I know of this great flower shop, well I knew that Gon seemed to like them, every time we walked passed this place I could see sparkles in his eyes, he looked like he really liked these flowers, so I noted that for whenever I would happen to give him flowers. Hey, if I wanna be a good boyfriend, I gotta remember these things.

I hope I'll be able to be his boyfriend..

I've done this before, so this shouldn't be that hard. Well these are actual feelings, I didn't have anything to lose with her. But I do with him. I don't want to lose him. Boyfriend or not. I still want to stay by his side.

After a few minutes of walking, I finally end up at the flower shop and walk in. I begin to look around to see if there was anything Gon might like. I ending up choosing these pink and red roses:

I went up to the cashier and payed. They costed 20.99, but it's worth it. He didn't deserve to suffer like that.. I'll have to talk to the doctor about that when I get back. But for now I have to focus on getting back to him.

As I'm walking I can feel my phone ringing, so I dig in my pocket get my phone and look to see who it is. Kurapika.. I answer and put it up to my ear, and kept walking. "Hey what's u-" "WHERE ARE YOU?! DO YOU KNOW WHATS HAPPENED TO GON?!" He screams in my ear causing me to flinch.

"Woah, calm down. I was just there. I went the get him some flowers. I'm on my way right now. It's leorio there?" I ask, trying to act calm, but I can still hear how worried I am in my own voice. I can hear him sigh, "yes he's with me. We are waiting outside his room right now. We haven't heard anything about what happened. We were just told he was in the hospital, so you know what happened?

I sign, "yes.. he tried to commit.." "HE TRIED TO WHAT?! ARE YOU SURE?!" "Yes that's what the doctor told me! I'm just going off of what he said. But I'm not sure why he did it though.." I say thinking back to what the doctor said. "He seemed fine before you two split up-" "oh my god.." I say finally getting it. "T-this is my fault.." I say feeling tears forming in my eyes. "I shouldn't have gone with Alluka! I should've stayed with him.. this is my fault.."

"Killua! What are you talking about?! This isn't your fault.. maybe it was something else!" "No.. it was me.. I'm sure of it! Why did I have to leave.." he sighs, "just hurry up. We can talk about it when you get here" he says and I hang up. I feel a single tear roll down my cheek. Stop crying! You're weak! I should've been there! I shouldn't have left him! It's all my fault.. I thought as I wiped the tear away.

I tried to calm myself down by breathing in and out, well I didn't want to break down on the sidewalk. I just have to not think about it until I get there. Easy right?

Time skip

THAT WAS NOT EASY! I just kept thinking about him.. even when I tried to stop. His broken face.. his body wrapped up in bandages.. I couldn't take it. So I started running, godspeed. I got there hella quick and rushed through the door, talked to the receptionist, and headed my way up to gons room.

When I got these I saw Kurapika sitting down tapping his foot, and Leorio pacing. As I start to approach them, Kurapika looks up at me, and stands up speed walking towards me. I stop, and he faces me. I see Leorio stop to look at me too.

"Killua-" "is he ok?! What did the doctor say?!" I say still out of breath. "He's fine." He says, and I give a soft smile of relief. "Can we see him?" "No not yet, the doctors are still running some tests. But he broke his right arm, left wrist, both legs, and neck. But they say he should be fine maybe in 1 and a half months, and he should be out." He says turning around to look at the door.

"I'm glad he's still alive, I'm beyond thankful his attempt wasn't successful.." I say putting my hand down to clutch my pants. "Ya.. I still wonder why he did such a thing.."

"it was me.. I shouldn't have left and I drove him to it by me not being there." Kurapika panicks looking at me "Kil, don't say that! You know it's not true." He says as he turns around to look at me.

I walk past him, his eyes still following me. "Yes it is Kurapika! Maybe if I would've stayed..-" I feel myself choke on my own words and tears start to form. "M-maybe.." I say clutching the flowers now, looking down at my feet. "M-maybe.. he wouldn't be l-like this.." I scrunch my face up, trying to hold back the tears.

I turn around to look at him. "K-killua.." Leorio says. I turn my head to look at him now, slowly softening my grip on the flowers. I fall to my knees. I see Kurapika reach out towards me, but pulls his hand back. "I-I wouldn't be able to live with myself if he died.. I wouldn't know what to do anymore." I place the flowers softly beside me, and move my hands to both my knees clutching them.

"I-I'm sorry G-Gon.. I-I'm so s-sorry.." I whisper.