𝗪𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝗜 𝗦𝗮𝘄 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗪𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗛𝗲𝗿

Part 18 (Killuas POV)

Killuas POV:

I was sitting there with my head stuffed in my hands,  hoping that Gon is ok. I really hope he doesn't have a panic attack, I want to be in there to help him through it, so it helps him a little. I just hate being so powerless through these situations. It seems like all I can think about anymore is Gon.. he just won't leave my mind, and when he does he always finds a way back in no matter how hard I try.

After what feels like forever the door finally opens, I quickly snap my head towards the door to see Gon walk out with his head down. He sits down next to me with his hands in his lap, his gaze never leaving it. "Gon.." I ask with worry present in my voice. Suddenly he hugs me tightly, and I hear him start to cry in my shoulder. I'm quick to hug back to comfort him, whispering sweet nothings into his ear. "Shhh.. it's ok Gon.. I know if was scary but I'm right here.." I whisper softly in his ear. I turn my head to kiss his cheek.

Time skip

Gon is now sleeping softly on my shoulder, he still has a little tears stained on his face. I have his soft abused hand in mine, rubbing his thumb. I hear his soft snores and calm steady breath next to me, and it calms me. I sigh and lean my head back on the wall. I wonder what's taking so long.. maybe it's bad.. I really hope not..

Thinking of the worst.. the therapist opens the door and steps out. I snap my head back to him. "You can come in now." He says. I nod and start to wake up Gon. "Come on Gon, it's time to wake up.~" I coo. "Mhm.." he hums tiredly and raises his head of my shoulder. I help him stand and we walk into the room.

It takes him a second, but once he fully was awake and realized where he was I could see worry, nervousness and stress in his face all at once. We sit down and I take his hand once again rubbing it, trying to calm him down.

The therapist closes the door and sits down.

"So.. good news or bad new first?" He asks. I look to Gon and he's looking back at me. I smile lightly at him. "Bad news, get it out of the way." I say and he clutches my hand. I use my free hand to pet his head. 

"Ok..that's a first." He says chuckling a little and looks to his clipboard. "So he has mild depression.. and severe anxiety.." the therapist says. My eyes widen and look to Gon, who it looking down in what I assume is shame. I tighten my grip on his hand. "So what can be good that comes out of that?" I ask. "Well we assume that when he tried to commit he had severe depression. But since then it seems like it's gotten better in a way." He says trying to lighten the mood. "Well that good.." I say looking back to Gon. "So he will have to take Anti-depressions and Anxiety medicine, once when he wakes up and before bed." The doctor informs me. "And he has to come back here to check up every Tuesday, 12:30." He also says. "You can go pick up your medication at the front." He lastly say and stands up leading us out. Me and Gon stand up and follow the therapist.

We walk up to the front and I pick the medicine with a smile thanking them, and me and Gon walk out. We get in the car and I start it when I suddenly hear..

"Are you going to leave me.." Gon asks softly. My eyes widen in shock "what?" I ask still shocked. "Well I excepted that when the appointment was over.. you would just leave.. are you not?" He asks me again. Did he really think I was just going to leave? Does he not trust me? I've tried to reassure him that I'll always be there for him.. guess I'm not trying hard enough.. "Did.. did you really think that..?" I reply. He nods and I see tears fall from his beautiful brown eyes. "Gon.." I say softly.

Whenever he's hurting or crying I always somehow feel pain on my heart.. I hate it when he cry's.. I am quick to hug him, and he sobs into my shoulder clutching my shirt. "Why would you ever think that? Do you not trust me?" I ask. He shakes his head. "I do trust you.. I'm just scared.. scared that when finally open up that you will leave.. I don't want to get hurt again.." he mumbles in my shoulder. "Oh Gon.." I say softly. I hug him tighter, "I'll never leave you ever.. I love you so much. And you have no idea how long I've wanted to be with you.." I say, feeling myself want to cry. I pull away to look at him. He has tears streaming down his face, and his eyes look dull.

I hate that I have to see this again.. this should only happen once, and it's already happened.. why again?

I pull in to kiss his soft lips. I feel him hesitate, but he kisses back and I move my hand to stroke his cheek. I pull away, and rest my forehead on his. I'm looking down at him and he's looking back at me. "I may be stupid.. but I'm not stupid enough to leave the most handsome, cute, and beautiful person I've ever met. Do you take me for an idiot?" I ask with a slight chuckle. He giggles blushing and shakes his head.

I smile and kiss his tear stained cheek.

"Good.. I don't want you to think that I would just get up and leave you like that. You mean the world to me Gon.. I love you more than life itself ok?" I say softly rubbing his cheek. He nods and leans into my hand. "Now let's go get some food alright? Then we can go home and cuddle." I state not letting him go. His face turns redder, but nods.

I then let him go, and we start to go get food, then go home. Or so I thought...