𝗪𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝗜 𝗦𝗮𝘄 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗪𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗛𝗲𝗿

Part 4 (Killuas POV)

Killuas POV:

"...I-I like y-you too k-killua.." I heard him say. I look at him shocked "Are you serious??" I say standing up, my stomach started twisting up in knots as he said that. My heart felt so amazing, it was a feeling I couldn't describe at all. Is this is? Will he finally be mine?

He nodded a little and gave a nervous smile. I smiled more than I've ever smiled in my life at that moment. I sat down on my knees and rested my head on the bed. "K-killua? What's wrong??" I felt tears of joy prick at my eyes "I'm just.. I'm just so happy..." I thought for a second. "Wait.. is that why you.." I look up and see him sitting up with his head turned.

I see tears falling from his eyes. My heart broke seeing him like this. "It is.. you thought.." I stop myself.. "you thought I wouldn't like you back.. and when you saw her.. it didn't help.. I didn't help.." the tears quickly turn to sad tears. I turn over to the other side to look him in the eyes. "I'm so sorry I wasn't there when you were suffering.. I should've noticed! I'm your best friend.. but I was to blinded by trying to push down my feelings.. I was selfish! You suffered and I was selfish.." I stand straight and look down at the ground "I-I'm so sorry... Gon.."

I hear him sniff, and start crying I look up to see him looking at his lap. "Killua.. no I was being selfish.. I didn't even.." he stopped. "I-I didn't even think about how you would feel.. I was so s-selfish.." I walk up to him, get on my knees and bring his chin up to look at me. "Stop. Don't tell yourself that Gon. You suffered, so you shouldn't be stressing out about some dumb selfishness. It doesn't matter. All that matters to me, is that you get better. I will, and I want to help you get better. I will be with you no matter what happens, I will never leave your side, for as long as I live. Dating or not." I look into his beautiful hazel eyes and smile 

"I love you Gon.."

I feel my face heat up a little, "I love you so much, it just pains me that you had to suffer like that." I let go on his chin and move it to his hand holding it. I tear up, again. "I love you so much.." I grip his hand a little tighter, but not enough to hurt him. I look up, bring his hand up to my face and kiss his fingers. Then rest my forehead on them. "I-I.. I love you too Killua.." I smile and look up at him.

I let go of his hand and bring my face up to his forehead and kiss it, then look down at his red face.  I rest my forehead on his. "You look so beautiful." He blushes and scrunches his eyes. "N-no I don't.. s-stop.."  I laugh and continue to stare at him. He opens his eyes to stare at me back.

We stay there for a second until we hear a knock at the door. I lift my forehead from his and turn around. I walk to the door and open it. "Are you two done yet? We want to see him before visiting hours are over." Kurapika says and pushes passed. Leorio falling right behind like a puppy on a leash. 

"Well yes ma'am sorry I wanna see my best friend." I say rolling my eyes. I turn around to walk back, and sit on the chair next to the window, and watch them talk. I looked in Gons eyes, and I could see a hint of emptiness.. I've seen that look before.. while still fighting pitou, after he found out Kite died.. I have to help him! Once he's out I need to ask him on a date. I smile at the though and continue to watch them talk.

Time skip

The doctor soon came in and told us visiting ours where over. I got up from the chair and went over next to him after Kurapika and Leorio said their goodbyes and left. I took his hand "I'll be back tomorrow, alright?" I say smiling at him. He smiles lightly back and nods. I lean down and kiss his cheek. "You're so embarrassing." He says and turns his head from me. I chuckle and let go of his hand, wave and walk out.

As I'm walking I sigh, but smile thinking about what's happened today. Today kinda sucked, but Gon accepting me make it 1,000 times better than it was. I just love that boy. I get to the entrance, wave and smile bye to the lady at the counter and walk out. It's sundown, about 8 pm, so if I walk I should get home around 8:30. I sign but keep walking.

Time skip

I get my keys out of my pocket and unlock the door. I step inside and take off my shoes, I close the door and look around still the same old house.. boring. It would be much better if Gon was here. After me and my ex wife got a divorce, I just decided to move out and save any complications. So I moved into this apartment. Pretty boring I know.

But I walk to the kitchen to see if there was something to eat. I haven't really had anything since breakfast, so I'm kinda hungry. I keep looking around and decide to make some ramen. Pretty easy and fast to make, so might as well. So I put some water in a pot and start to boil it, when it boils I put the ramen in and wait for it to get soft. Then take it out, drain some of the water and added the flavoring. I then put it in a bowl and got some chop sticks. I place the food to the table and satdown.

I pick at the ramen with the chop sticks for a few minutes, I can't stop thinking about him.. Gon.. it pains me that you are like that. I hate to see you hurt, and cry, it breaks my heart. I sigh and finally decided to eat.

Time skip

I finish eating and put the dishes in the sink. I then walk to my room and change, and go brush my teeth. I finish my nightly tasks, and I go to lay down. Once I lay down my mind starts running, I keep thinking about Gon.

Why did he do that.. oh ya, it's because I left him.. and me introducing her wasn't the best of my ideas, it just made everything worse than it already was before. How long has he been feeling like that? I need to know these things so I can help him! I can't just sit by and watch him suffer like this. No way am I doing that. He's my future boyfriend, I want to help i him. But what can I do.. I'm so useless! I can't do anything in times like this.. the only thing I can do is make him happy. If that's the only thing I can do, then I have to do it to the best of my abilities. And I won't rest until he's happy. When he's happy, I'm happy.

I sigh and finally I close my eyes and get some rest.