𝗪𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝗜 𝗦𝗮𝘄 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗪𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗛𝗲𝗿

Part 6 (Killuas POV)

Killuas POV:

"I have to go." I say standing up and heading to the door. "K-killua!" Gon tells behind me, I ignore it and open the door, and walk out. I close the door behind me, put my hands in my pocket and let my bangs fall over my eyes. I walk slowly, but fast enough as not to take up the hall. I make it to the main entrance and walk out.

Damn it.. damn it.. DAMN IT! I clench my teeth and start running, I didn't know where. But I was running. God damnit! Why did I just walk out like that?! He needed me! And I just left him.. I shouldnt have. Why am I so stupid?! I can't do anything right! I stop running, and start panting trying to catch my breath. I feel tears fall down my face and I start crying.

I walk up to a tree and sit down below it. I'm still breathing heavy trying to catch my breath, while sobbing into my knee. I'm such a bad friend.. how could I survive being a good boyfriend?! I've done it before yeah, but these are actual feelings, I was just faking it with her. If it didn't work out I couldve just picked someone else! But I have something to lose here.. I have someone to lose here! Real feelings for a real person.. and I probably just blew it.. because of my dumb selfishness.. I was just so mad with everything that happened to him. I was so frustrated with it! If I could switch places with him right now, I would do it no hesitation... UGH! WHY IS LIFE SO DAMN DIFFICULT?!

I take my hand out from under my chin and punch the tree behind me. "DAMN IT!" I yell. I lean my head back into the tree and breathe. After a few minutes I let my fist fall on the ground, and I turn to look at it. Already a bruise.. a few scratches. Damn.. I need to go back to him..

I stand up to finally look around. A park.. I sign and place my hands in my pockets and start walking. Where even am I? I've never seen this place before.. I keep walking until I see a street sign. Great.. I'm 30 minutes away from my apartment. 40 from the hospital. If I run I'll get there in 20. Was I really running for 20 minutes? I shake my head, and start walking. My head hurts.. I should do back home and rest for a while.. NO I need to see him. I get determination in my face and I start running again. Even though I'm still out of breath, I keep running anyways.

Time skip

I finally get to the hospital and grab onto a pillar, and bend down to catch my breath, holding onto my knees. I'm breathing really hard, then remember I'm here to see Gon. I rush in to the entrance and tell the receptionist what room and signed in. I started rushing to his room, I get there and open the door. I'm still breathing heavy. When I open I see Gon asleep holding onto the bear I got him. I start walking to the bed, and sit down on the chair. Still catching my breath.

I scoot the chair closer so I could see him more clearly. I slowly grab his hand, as not to wake him. I bring it up to my lips and kiss the back of his hand softly. I bring out hands back down and rest them on the bed.

After a while I start to get tired, close my eyes and drift off to sleep.