𝗪𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝗜 𝗦𝗮𝘄 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗪𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗛𝗲𝗿

Part 3 (Gons POV)

Gons POV:

What happened.. I don't remember what happened after I tried too.. of course, why me? Why couldn't my attempt have been successful.. all I ask in life is to die.

I just wanna die.

Is that to much to ask for?

Killuas married. Kurapika collected all the eyes to his clan, and Leorio is a doctor.. once I got old enough Ging left me.. again. So I have no one else to live for. But no, I woke up in the hospital. Very much alive.

I'm surprised killua even showed up.. and now I can hear yelling outside the room. "W-whats ha-happening..? And how long have I been out?" I ask as I flinch a little as I try to move my neck.

Why does it hurt to much?

"Your friends are arguing outside. And you've been out for 2 weeks." 2 WEEKS?! And Arguing? Why would they be arguing..? "Oh.. what happened to me?" "Well when you jumped off, some by standers called the police. Then the ambulance came and took you here. You broke both of your legs, your neck, right arm, and left wrist."

... I opened my mouth, but nothing came out. About a minute later, "W-when can I l-leave?" I ask. "Maybe a month in a half, maybe two months. And once your out your going to therapy. We need to ask some questions about what happened and why you did it. But not now, you still need to heal. In the mean time though." He says to turn around and look at me. "Would you like to see anybody? Visitors?" I though about it for a minute.. "K-killua.. Killua Zoldyck.." he nods and opens the door. A few seconds later he steps out and killua rushes in.

"F-flowers?" I ask looking down at his hand, holding green roses. I look back up at him, he gives me a soft smile and sits down next to me. "Uh ya, they are for you." He says blushing a little. I smile a little, "t-thanks.. you can set them on the table." He nods and places them on the table. "I didn't have enough time to get a pot, I was rushing back over here. Kurapika called me and asked where I was. So I started running back." He says and shrugs. "Enough about me, are you ok? Why would you do that?" I says with worry in his eyes.

"W-well.. I-I.." I say starting to tear up a little. He will make fun of me for being such a cry baby, and if I tell him.. he'll judge me for wanting to kill myself over such a stupid reason. I turn my head away, still wincing because my neck hurt. I hear him sigh, and next thing I know he put his hand under my chin and pulling it so I could look at him.

He smiles at me. "You don't have to tell me. It's ok. I just want you to know I'm here for you! I wouldn't know what to do with myself if you died.." "I-I'm s-sorry.." I whisper. "Don't say sorry. I should be saying sorry, I wasn't there for you when you needed me. You suffered and I didn't see it. It's my fault! If I haven't left.. maybe you wouldn't-" "stop.. don't say that.." I stop and look away. "I-I was.. I-I.."

"I was j-jealous.." "jealous? Why would you be jealous?" "You looked so happy.. with her.. I wanted to feel that kind of happyness." I look back at him and see shock on his face. Then he shakes his head. "I wasn't happy with her." I stare at him in shock. "B-but..-" "it was fake. All of it. I didn't want to be with her. I though that maybe.." he stops himself, and looks down. "Maybe I would forget about the feelings I had for you.." my face heats up.

"F-for m-me..? W-what do y-you..-" "I like you Gon.. I have for a long time. Ive wanted to get that off my chest forever.. I just figured you didn't like me back, so I tried to marry thinking I would forget about those dumb feelings.." my eyes widen in shock, "if you don't like me it's ok, my feelings would finally be at peace and I could move on.. not trying to force them away.." I feel my face heat up "I..I-I.." I stop myself to think. "a-am I dreaming..? I-I don't know what to s-say.." he looks up at me. "K-killua.." he looks in my eyes "Gon.." I look away. "I-I.."

why can I say anything?! Isn't this what I wanted? Isn't this why I tried to kill myself? Because I couldn't come to terms that he probably didn't like me.. now he does.. what do I say? This has never happened to me before.. I don't know what to do! Do I say something? How did I end up in this situation.. I mean I'm not complaining.. I wanted this..  "Gon?" He asks and I turn towards him. "K-killua.. I don't know what to s-say.."

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"I-I like y-you too K-killua.."