𝗪𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝗜 𝗦𝗮𝘄 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗪𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗛𝗲𝗿

Part 9 (Gons POV)

Gons POV:

I'm so nervous.. I don't want to do this. I'm just scared.. I'm so scared, I would rather be dead than this.. but killua, well he really wants me to do this. He really wants to help me.. maybe it's all fake.. maybe when I'm better he won't like me anymore.. did he lie about liking me? I don't want to think about it. Not in my state of mind.. Leorio.. Kurapika..killua.. they are trying to help me.. they want me to get better. But I'm not sure if I want to get better..

I'm snapped out of my thoughts as the doctor walks in with soup. I look at it in disgust. I turn my head, god this smells horrible. I put my hand over my mouth. I hear the doctor setting the bowl down on the table. "Gon." Killua says. I open my eyes to look at him. He reassuringly nods his head. I put my hand on my lap and slowly look back at the table. It looks so gross.. i look up at the doctor. He sits down on his chair. "This is something easy, some chicken noodle soup." He says handing me chopsticks.

I hesitantly take it. I look down at them nervously. I look back at killua, helpless. "It's ok Gon, don't be scared. I'm right here." I breathe, "Just breathe Gon, take your time, no rush." The doctor says. I look back over to the noodles. I can do this.. it's not that hard.. just get it over with. I breathe in and out. I slowly move my hand over to the top of the bowl.

I slowly pick up some noddles. I move my head over to the chopsticks, and I smell it. I move my head back "it smells so bad.." I say softly. "Has it always smelt like this..?" I ask. The doctor laughs a bit, "it smells the same every time." He says. I look back, and bring it closer to my mouth again. I open, and took a bite.

I immediately spit it out, dropped the chopsticks and covered my mouth. I shook my head vigorously. "Uh-uh!" I hummed. The doctor stood up and sighed. "I will leave you two alone, Killua please try to get him to take one bite." He says, and walks out. I look over to killua. He looks at me with a little pain in his eyes. He stands up and walks to the other side of the bed, and sits down where the doctor sat. "Gon." He says, and removes my hands from my mouth. "Please, at least put it in your mouth, and chew a little. For me?" He asks with puppy dog eyes.

"B-but.. b-but.. it's.." I stutter out. "Please?" He asks again. I think about it, and hesitantly, and slowly nod my head yes. He smiles softly, and I pick up the chopsticks once again. I pick some noddles up. And stare at them. I take a breath, and I bring them closer to my mouth hesitantly. I take a bite and slowly put the chopsticks down. I cover my mouth as not to throw it back up.

After about a minute of chewing, and most of the time it sitting still in my mouth, I finally swallow it. I felt tears prick in my eyes, and I coughed. I felt a hand pet my head. "W-water.." I whisper sofly. He nods, and picks up the cup on the counter next to him. I take my hands off my mouth, he lifts my chin and placed the cup close to my lips. He slowly raises it as not to make the water spill out, I start to take small sips.

He slowly pulls it back, and I breathe. He takes one of my hands. "That was amazing Gon, you did it!" He says happily. "Mhm.." I hum sofly. "Can we do it again?" He asks. My eyes widen, I shake my head.  "Nuh-uh!" I say. "Gon.." he says.

After 1 hour of struggling, and 3 bites later

"You're doing amazing Gon, is it getting easier as we go along?" I nod my head "ya, a bit easier it doesn't taste as gross as before." I say with a slight smile. Right as I smile the doctor walks in. "How is it going?" He asks and walks over to the bed. Killua turns to look at him "it's gong pretty good, he has taken 4 bites and he says it's getting easier every bite." He says with a smile. "That's good! I think that's enough for today though, you've done great Gon." He says to me with a smile. I slightly smile back, and he picks up the bowl, and walks out with it.

Killua turns back to look at me, he smiles softly, and kisses my forehead. My face turns red, and he chuckles at me, "I'll never get used to that will I?" I ask myself, covering my face. He starts laughing. "It's cute, I like it when you blush like that." He says petting my head. "W-whatever.." I say embarrassed by his comment.