Shadowhunters Preferences

I was here- everyone (Jace)

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Alec was the first one who saw you fall, he had just slain one of Valentines men and had turned to check on you who were fighting by his side, only to see a seraph blade being pulled out from your stomach by a young woman, one of Valentine's followers.

The seraph blade you had held in your own hand fell from your grasp and it felt as if everything happened in slow motion as you fell to yours knees on the ground and Alec rushed over to you, his blade slicing right through the woman before he fell down to his knees by your side.

"[Y/N], [Y/N], look at me, hey look at me" he urged you as he gripped onto your arms.

You looked up from the hole in your stomach that was pulsating blood and up at Alec as tears filled your eyes.

"I'm dying, aren't I?" You choked out. "Alec, I'm not ready to die"

"[Y/N], listen to me, you're not dying, you're just in shock" Alec said hurriedly before he turned to look over his shoulder. "Magnus! Help! Somebody help!"

You could feel your legs weakening beneath you. "Alec, I need to lay down" you stammered out as you grasped at his arms.

"Ehm, okay. Here, lay your head in my lap and put pressure on the wound" he said frantically as you slowly laid down so that your head was resting in his lap, your hands pressing down upon the wound in your abdomen.

You could feel Alec's larger hands cover your own as he too applied pressure to the wound.

You tilted your head back to look up at him, a weak smile forming on your lips as your stared up at his worried face. "I'm glad you're here" you said, before coughing up some blood, all the while the wound started to hurt much more.

"Shh, don't talk. Save your strength"

Suddenly Magnus appeared by your side, his eyes wide with shock when he saw you lying down on the battle field. He surveyed your injuries quickly, his face falling when he realized that there was nothing he could do.

"It's okay, I don't think I'll ever be ready to leave, but it's okay" you stammered out as tears now streamed down your paling cheeks.

Magnus looked down at you as his eyes welled with tears, his hand reaching out to rest on top of Alec's who were still pressing down on the wound.

You could see Simon and Clary running towards the three of you in your peripheral vision and smiled when they too kneeled down by your side, Clary's eyes already bloodshot from the tears she had shed.

"[Y/N], no" she choked out.

"Jace, Isabelle. Grab Raphael and get here now" you heard Simon scream before he turned to you, his eyes red rimmed as if he too had been crying.

The three that had been summoned all gathered around you. You could see Raphael's face take on an even whiter shade than normal when he saw you lying in a pool of your own blood. Isabelle choked back a sob by covering her mouth with her hand and Jace fell down to his knees by your side, his hand reaching out to take a hold of yours that had untangled itself from Alec's.

You looked at all of them in turn, Alec who had been like an older brother to you. He had always been there for you and always wanted you to be protected, even though that meant he had been way too overprotective in the process.

Magnus who had let you into his life with open arms, who always left his door open for you for when you needed a place to crash if you just needed a break from life. Drinking margaritas and laughing over old memories with him were moments you held close to your heart.

Simon, who too had been like a brother to you, but the geeky easygoing kind. The two of you spent almost every free weekend playing video games or watching movies and geeking out about random facts only super fans knew.

And Clary who you could sit and talk to for hours about whatever popped into your head. You had modeled for her countless of times and you always encouraged her to keep drawing, to never give it up even though the shadow world didn't really allow her to have the time for a hobby.

Isabelle, who understood you more than you understood yourself. You two had bonded over your interest in clothes and that had deepened into such a strong friendship that you couldn't go a day without talking to each other. You were always at each other's side.

Raphael, the misunderstood vampire who you helped make dishes to take to Rosa's when you had your nights free. The two of you would spend hours laughing and joking about in the kitchen as you prepared numerous delicious dishes all from Raphael's old family recipes.

And the one and only, Jace Herondale. The man you had come to love more than anything else in this world. You knew that you had loved him from the first moment you laid your eyes upon him, and each moment the two of you had spent together were moments that you would never forget.

You squeezed Jace's hand as you glanced at all the people who had meant something to you, the people who had made your life as beautiful and wonderful as it had been, and that was partly why you didn't want it to end. Because you knew that you wouldn't see these people again in a very long time, you were sure that you would see them again but you knew it would take time.

But you knew that they would keep the memory of you intact and that they would always carry you with them in their hearts like you had carried them with you.

You had lived, and you had loved so goddamn much, you had more or less done everything that you wanted, and it was so much more than you thought it would be. And you had indeed left your mark, you had left your mark in these people, and they would never forget you.

"I love you guys, and I'll miss you so much" you stammered out as blood leaked out from your mouth.

You could hear several of sobs as you turned your head to look at Jace, his blue eyes glossy from the tears that had welled up in his eyes and were streaming down his cheeks.

"I love you, Jace. I had hoped that we would be able to be together for at least 60 more years, but the Angels had different plans" you choked out as your were overwhelmed with emotions, both sadness, but also happiness since you had had these people in your life. "Just remember that I love you, and please don't beat yourself up over this, there was nothing you could do, and that's okay. This is all okay" you whispered the last part as you could feel your heart slow down.

Your hand that was holding Jace's went limp and the world turned dark, the last thing you heard being Jace calling out your name before everything seized to exist.

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A/N
Ahhhh, don't we all just love the sadness.