𝕄𝕪 𝔼𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕪𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘// ℙ𝕄

Chapter 33

Editing?

sHe DoEsNt eVeN gO HeRe

Payton's POV

"Hey.." I responded as she walked through the door.

"So what's up," she said cheerfully, sitting on my lap and snaking her arms around my neck. She attempted to give me a light kiss, but I found myself swerving away. I watched her face drop and she slowly got off of me.

"Is something wrong baby?" Her eyebrows curved in confusion. She looked helpless, like an abandoned puppy. I looked down at my floorboards. I didn't even know why I called her over. I just felt like I had to. I didn't plan anything I was going to say beforehand. In fact, I had no idea that I would say this to her but I just did. It was what I felt like I needed to do in the moment.

"I don't think I can do this anymore, Serenity," I said, my eyes stuck on the wooden floor.

"What....?" I looked up to see her eyes widened and quickly filling with tears, "What can I do to make it better? What did I do wrong?"

"Nothing." I answered quietly.

Serenity's POV

(a/n: I bet you didn't expect her perspective huh?)

I got a text from Payton telling me to come to his house and that it was important. I quickly left my house to go see him, and I arrived after about 5 minutes. I walked up to his room to see he looked kind of out of it.

"Hey what's up?" I smiled.

"Hey..." He answered hesitantly.

He seemed upset so in an attempt to make him feel better I crawled into his lap.

"Is something wrong baby?" I asked him. He didn't answer and he just kept looking at the floor. I tried giving him a peck on the lips to get his attention, but he moved out of the way. Confused, I got off of him.

Maybe he doesn't want affection right now?

I watched his facial expression shift as he stared down at the floor. He looked flustered and confused.

"I don't think I can do this anymore, Serenity." He said, gazing numbly at the floor.

My heart sank and tears immediately formed in my eyes, "What..." I said in shock.

I can fix this. If he needs me to be better, then that's what I'll do. He's done so much for me. I can improve for him if that's what he needs.

"What can I do to make it better? What did I do wrong?" I stuttered.

"Nothing," I heard him mutter softly.

"Oh..." I said softly, my shoulders falling and my entire body slumping. I knew the reason. It was her. It was Ashley, the girl who had always held his heart. I constantly told myself that he loved me. I convinced myself that all of the things he said to me meant more than the longing looks that he gave her. The way he stared at her in utter awe, as if he melted over something about her.

Was it the way she talked? Or something about how she adjusted her hair? Did she sway her hips in a special way when she walked? Was there something unique about the way her pink-tinted lips curled into a smile? Were there particular features that light up when she laughed?

Then, there was the day he gave her his jacket. I knew his reason was valid, but I felt a hint of jealousy seeing her wrapped in my boyfriend's clothes.

Even the first day at school, I got frustrated because she continually had all of his attention.

I didn't ever have a problem with her. I had a problem with the way he looked at her. I had a problem watching Payton invest himself in someone who had told him they weren't going to be anything.

 I didn't want to blatantly know that I was the rebound. I didn't want to accept that I wasn't his first choice, even though he was mine. 

 I didn't hate her. I hated the feelings my favorite person felt about her. I hated that the guy that consumed my mind was thinking about another girl.

But why wouldn't he think about her? She was beautiful, funny, and sweet. She stood up for herself and always tried to find the positive outlook on a situation. She was everything I couldn't be.

I fell for Payton. I fell for the way his hair fell around his face, and the way his eyes light up when he was excited. I fell for the dimples that creased across his face when he smiled. His image ran laps through my mind.

But he fell for her. He fell for the way that she delicately stepped as she walked across concrete. He fell for the way that she messily tied her hair up. He fell for the way she scrunched her face when eating sour food. Her image ran laps around his mind.

(a/n: See how both of them want to be each other-)

"It's her....right?" I finally said to him, a tear releasing itself from my eye and spiraling down my cheek.

He didn't say anything and continued to just stare off into an abyss. His eyes set on an imaginary world that only he could see into. 

"I know you're in love with her," I sighed, "I always knew. I just..." A sob found its way out of my mouth, "I didn't want to believe it."

He looked at me and his mouth opened as if he was going to speak, but nothing came out.

"I want to be good enough for you Payton," I sniffed, "But I know I'm not the girl you want..." Tears rapidly flowed out of my eyes as I hurriedly tried to wipe them off my face.

"Ren.....you are such a good person. I'm sorry that I wasn't a good boyfriend. I just...I shouldn't be dating you if I know I can't get someone else out of my mind."

"So what does this mean?" I cradled my face in my hands, trying to withstand the news I knew I was about to hear.

"I'm breaking up with you Serenity...I'm so sorry, you deserve someone who's going to treat you like the amazing kind hearted person I know you are." He stood up and wrapped his arms around me as I sobbed into his chest.

"Let go of me and go to her, dummy..." I pulled away and wiped my face, that was now full of.....gross.

Do you people finally understand she isn't a bad person now?

All she ever really did was like a guy.

Anywhore,

How'd you like the chapter?

Did it meet your eXpEcTaTiOnS?

Ik she didn't die but like-

Was that good enough for you?

That's all idk what else to say,

Later Losers 🦑