Finding Amity

Chapter 33

The next morning we met up with Noah and Sadie at the McKenzie River to go fly-fishing, and I soon realised I was not good at fly-fishing. I moved off to the side and sat on a boulder next to Birdie.

"Are you enjoying your girls trip so far?" She asked.

I turned to her and nodded, a wide smile on my face. I always thought of myself as "not like other girls", that I got along better with guys because of my close friendship with Cooper. I've never had a group of friends and I'd never been friends with many girls. It was nice to be in a friend group and to have close girl friends I could go to for advice.

"Look, Amity, I don't want to pry into your life." She started, her gaze focused on the river. "But recently you've been... sad. I just want to know if everything is okay."

I breathed in deeply, wrapping my arms around myself.

"You can't tell Pippa any of this." I prefaced. Birdie nodded obediently. "You know Isaac?"

"Super hot, silky hair, stares at you like he both can't stand you and can't stand to be with out you?" She asked, I raised my eyebrow in response. "I'm pretty observant. Even when intoxicated."

"Yeah, that guy." I chuckled. "We were... I don't even know. We were getting close, at least I thought we were. It sounds stupid, we only kissed once, but I felt like there was... something between us. But afterwards he said the kiss was a mistake. I guess he didn't feel the same way I did."

"That doesn't make sense." She mumbled, concern etched into her face.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"Sorry." She caught herself. "I just, I thought he did. It really seemed like he was into you." Birdie turned to me and placed her hand on top of mine. "Sorry, again. Salt in the wound and all."

"Its fine." I sighed. "What bothers me is just... it wasn't just a kiss. It was hot and passionate and I don't think you can fake that. Is it narcissistic to think he does have feelings for me and there was something else getting in the way?"

"I don't think its narcissistic. If you don't focus on what he said and just look at his actions, maybe you're right."

I breathed in and out, I didn't want to be upset about this. Not here and not now, and not while I'm just getting comfortable with Dustin.

"Forget I said any of that." I uttered. "It was confusing, but none of that matters anymore. I am dating Dustin now, I don't need to know what Isaac may or may not have meant."

"I still can't believe that." Birdie laughed. "Our TA."

"Hey, at least I waited until he was out of the job." I defended.

We spent the rest of the day walking along the river and cooking up lunch. By dinner time, we were exhausted. Pippa and I skipped dinner to go to bed early, both of us very excited for tonight to be our last night camping.