ғʀᴀᴜᴅᴜʟᴇɴᴛ ➳ 𝘮𝘰𝘯𝘰𝘮𝘢 𝘯𝘦𝘪𝘵𝘰

𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘵𝘦𝘳 35

guys ill be honest- I WANT TO DROP THIS BOOK😐 i dont know if im ok bc suddenly im cringing to everything i wrote but ill try to finish it to the best of my ability bc I KNOW THE PAIN OF A BOOK NOT BEING COMPLETED 😔😔😔 but i would appreciate feedback on my writing thank u😃👍🏻❤️
___________________________________

A still silence flooded the empty building. You had the whole dorm to yourself until the evening. Everyone had gone off for their practical examination. The barren living room made you feel lonely.

Furthermore, a missing blonde had been running through your mind rigorously. You wanted to search for him. Talk to him.

Hold him.

No.

What are you talking about?

He threw your friendship down into the bin.

Literally.

You slapped your palms against your cheeks. This was no time to think about Neito. Give it up y/n. You are not going to find him. He could have flown overseas, or change his district. Who knows where he went.

He's gone.

A distraction was needed. A big one. The brilliant idea of baking cookies for 2A flashed in your mind. What else could be more rewarding than a bunch of homemade cookies after a tiring exam?

Large amounts of adrenaline surged through you as you began thinking about the different types of cookies you could make.

Chocolate Chip? Red velvet? White Chocolate chip?

The possibilities were endless. You quickly grabbed your wallet and headed to the nearest supermarket. It was down by the mall. Considering it was a weekday, you hoped that it would not be crowded.

Entering the mall, it was just as you hoped. The building had a few people here and there, but there was no shoving and pushing all round. Slowly walking towards the supermarket, a lean figure caught your eye.

Was that...?

Could it be..?

You wanted to go after the figure. It was all too familiar. The little blonde strands peeking at the back of the person's hat grew your hopes higher. It must have been impossible. You searched high and low around the district for weeks.

Neito, is that you?

Without a second thought, your feet propelled forward.

I need to catch him. Before he disappears again.

Your arms reached out to grab his, the distance between the both of you closed.

" huff.. huff... Nei..to.. huff.. is that you..? "

you panted, clearly out of breath. Your eyes glued to the ground, afraid of looking up. What if it was him? What were you going to say?

" Please address me as Monoma. "

The calming voice pierced through you. Slowly looking up, your gaze fell onto his. It was cold and distant. He looked like he had not been eating for days. His body became so thin. What once was a beautiful shade of muted blue turned grey with circles like a panda.  That pale complexion of his added onto his shocking appearance.

" Neito..Please don't do this. "

You were begging. You had just found him and was already begging? This is ridiculous.

Shouldn't you be the angry one?

" I said, please address me as Monoma. Now then, L/n I have to go. "

He shrugged you off as if you were nothing.

Not this again.

Something inside you snapped. Maybe it was the anger, but you gripped his hand and yanked him into an empty room. It was dim. The only source of light was from above, where the stairs had lead to.

Neito's patience was thinning out. He had to return to the office to keep up with work. There was no time for games. A quick snack was just what he wanted.

Not this.

" L/n, let me go. I have matters to attend to. "

" Neito. Please. Don't leave me again."

The blonde stared at your pained expression. Softening his piercing gaze, he slouched his body to reach your eye level. His slender fingers reached out to you. Gently pushing your hair out of your face, a soft mumble escaped his lips.

" I'm sorry. I did it again, didn't I..."

Hot tears leaked out as his cold fingers touched your skin.

" It's not fair Neito. Why are you the one pushing me to the curb? Wasn't it the other way round? "

Your little fists lightly punched his chest. You felt so weak. Everytime you thought he was here to stay, he left once again.

Fear and anger bubbled within you. Your head was filling up with so much despise. Unable to hold back your temper, you snapped.

" Is it funny to you? "

" What..? "

Retracting his hand, he stared at you in plain confusion.

You tried to take in a deep breath as you sobbed.

" I said, is it funny to you? "

" None of this is funny y/n. "

His soft yet firm voice caused you to burst out even more. You missed that voice. That touch.

" Neito. Please..Stop doing this to me. "

Your fingers gripped onto his shirt. The waterworks could not stop. Your body was trembling violently. Your mind was spinning out of control.

Without a thought, precious words escaped your lips.

" I..love you...so much..that.."

Your tears flowed out even more. The uncontrollable sobbing made your speech worse.

" that..? "

" It hurts Neito...It hurts."