Toxicity (Spencer Reid X Reader)

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TW: ABUSE AND MENTIONS OF SEXUAL ASSAULT

You wake up and roll over, Spencer isn't there. This isn't something you're not used to. Spencer is never there when you wake up, he's always at work or drinking or something.

You thought things would be a bit different this time around.

You roll off of the bed and rub your eyes. You go to the mirror and look at the dark circles under your eyes.

Damn, you're tired.

You haven't been able to sleep that much recently.

You walk into the kitchen, not even bothering to eat anything. Spencer is laying on the floor, covered in his own vomit.

You go to the bathroom and grab a rag, you wet it under the sink and walk back into the kitchen. You get on the ground and start to clean him up.

Spencer grabs your hand so hard that it hurts, his eyes are so red.

"Get your fucking hands off of me."

"I was just trying to help."

"Well, I don't need a fucking thing from you."

You throw the rag in his face, "fine, clean it your fucking self." You get up and go to walk away. He gets up and grabs your hair so hard that your head slings back.

"Let go of me!" you push his hand away with a lot force. You glare at Spencer as he looks at you with dead, emotionless eyes, "what the fuck is wrong with you?"

"You know what? I wish James or whatever the fuck his name is actually did do something"

Your face drops and you feel like you're about to cry, "you don't mean that."

"Yes, I do. Maybe, just maybe you wouldn't be such a stuck up bitch."

You gulped at that, you didn't know that Spencer could say such hurtful things to you. You start to rethink your decisions of staying with him.

You knew he had a good heart but if he were to get drunk and say these things to you then maybe you should leave.

"Spencer.."

He grabs you by your shoulders and gets in your face, "you are nothing."

You are terrified of him right now. You knew he could be aggressive, you knew he could be an emotionless prick, but this is more than anything that you've seen from him.

You had let your guard down and now he's taking advantage of it, maybe you shouldn't let things stay the same.

He lets go of your shoulders and stumbles in the bedroom.

You kneel down and take the rag and clean up the vomit in the floor. Then wash it off in the sink and throw it in the laundry basket.

You decide to lay on the couch since Spencer is in the bedroom and you don't want to piss him off anymore.

You sprawl out on the leather and stare off into space and eventually fall asleep.

You wake up a couple of hours later with a raging headaches, you decide to go back to the bed and lay down. As you lay down, Spencer wakes up and puts his hand on yours.

"Hey, baby."

You stay silent while looking at him in a confused voice, he's a completely different person.

He opens his eyes and looks at you, "what?"

"You got drunk again."

You know he remembers what he said to you, he's just playing dumb so he can get out of it.

"Spencer, I think maybe we should break things off for now."

Spencer sets up, "what? Why?"

"I think it's best for us, for me at least."

"What did I do?"

"You don't remember but I will, everything you said to me. I don't think it's best if we try to work things out."

"Babe whatever it was, I'm sorry. It will never happen again," he's sounds deeply apologetic and sad that about this.

You don't want to hurt him but you're hurting yourself. You don't know what to do.

should they stay together😳?
also sorry if this sucks