Toxicity (Spencer Reid X Reader)

10

You wake up from a nightmare.

This was odd because you haven't had a nightmare in so long. You were sweating and you're shaking. Your heart is racing.

You look over to the clock.

4:13 AM

You are confused because you're not even tired.

You sit up quickly after you wake up, it wakes Spencer up. You can hear how loud your breathing is. Spencer sits up and gets very close to you. He starts comforting you.

You were so caught up, you didn't realize that you were crying.

Spencer wipes your tears with his hands. You calm down after you get used to your surroundings and realize that you were just having a nightmare.

You look at Spencer, your eyes are puffy and you have to breathe through your mouth because your nose is stuffed.

Spencer is looking back at you, "do you want to talk about it?"

You sniff a little look forward,"no."

"Okay, that's fine. I'm here for you," his harm is wrapped around you so tightly. and your head is next to his chest.

You pull away from his grasp and get up.

"Y/N?" Spencer says.

"Just leave me alone please," you go out of the bedroom and into the bathroom.

You sit down on the floor and put your knees up to your chest. You don't know why you're feeling this way but you knew you needed to be alone.

You cried so hard into your knees.

You blew your nose into a wad of toilet paper and threw the toilet paper in the trash.

You decide to get up and look at yourself in the mirror.

You don't recognize this person. Your dark circles are pretty much half of your face, you don't have the same look in your eyes.

Your eyes are bloodshot red, your under eyes are so puffy.

You wipe your tears and take a deep breath. You cup your hands and put some water in them and splash your face.

You walk out of bathroom and into the bedroom.

Spencer is sleeping.

You go into the kitchen start the coffee pot. You sit down at the kitchen table and soon the coffee smell fills the room.

You get up and get a mug then pour the coffee in the mug.

You take a couple of sips from the coffee and set it on the table then sit down at the couch.

You sit down and stare at the floor. You contemplate stuff, ask yourself questions. Why are you with Spencer? What's going on with you? What do you do?

You look around and look through the bedroom doorway. What is going on with you?

You take a deep breath.

You have a couple of hours before work. It seemed like a long time but time seemed to go way faster for you right now.

You sprawl out on the couch and try to catch some sleep.

You wake up after a couple of hours and get up. You stretch out because the couch wasn't very comfortable.

You go into the bedroom, Spencer is tying his tie.

You go over to your dresser and pick out a random outfit. You change your clothes in front of him, taking your dirty clothes and putting them in a bin.

Spencer walks up from behind you and tries to give you a hug.

You act in a reflex and turn around as quickly as you can to slap him across the face, "oh my god."

Spencer grabs his face quickly.

"I'm so sorry, Spencer. Oh my god, I'm so sorry."

"It's okay, I shouldn't have snuck up on you like that," Spencer reaches for you and rubs your arm.

"I'm so sorry," you look at Spencer. Spencer chuckles.

"It's fine," he says as you go to the kitchen and get into the freezer. You grab an ice pack and run back into the room.

You give him the ice pack, "I'm so sorry."

"It's fine, baby."

He puts the ice pack up to his cheek.

You don't know what to do so but you give him a tight hug, "baby, I'm fine."

"I feel so bad."

He pulls away and leans it for a give, giving it a moment before he actually kisses you, making sure that you consent.

You give him a kiss back.

You go into the living room and slip on your shoes.

You grab your keys and place them in your pocket, then walk back into the bedroom.

You pull Spencer in so that your torsos are close to each other. You look up at him as he runs his hands between your waist.

"I love you," you smile at Spencer.

"So, you're feeling better now?" Spencer smiles back at you. He runs one of his hands through your hair.

"I'm feeling great, but we should get to work," you pull away and grab his hand. You two walk into the living room and out of the front door.

Spencer locks the door with his keys.

You two walk to work and get into the elevator.

You go up to the BAU level and walk into the office. You haven't had much time to get to know the members.

So, you decide now would be a good time.

You walk up to Emily.

"I haven't got the chance to talk to you since you were in the interrogation room," Emily says while smiling.

You smile back at her.

"I know, I would really like to get to know the rest of the team."

"Well, let's start by-"

Emily cuts off and looks over to across the office. You heard a couple of gasps but the room went completely silent.

The guy that instructed you yesterday was on the ground and Spencer was standing over him.