Toxicity (Spencer Reid X Reader)

14

You can't believe you're actually considering doing this. You were almost two years clean and this would wash all of that time down of the drain.

You open the small bag and pour the contents out on the sink.

You lean your head down and cover one of your nostrils as you snort the entire bag.You lift your head up as you finish and rub your nose.

You look in the mirror and run the water, cuping some of it in one of your hands to wash off the residue.

You throw the bag in the trash as you look up at yourself.

You just threw away almost 2 years.

You feel kind of chilled out and come to the conclusion that it's heroine or even a crushed up xanax, depending on the other effects. You thought that maybe you hid it in your pocket to keep it safe.

You look in the mirror and see your pupils gets very small, it's definitely heroine.

You try to shake the effect and go out of the restroom and back into the room.

You sit back in your seat and the team looks at you, you are slower than usual and you can't seem to focus.

Emily and Spencer notices this.

Everyone gets up and goes into the main room with a bunch of desk. The team delivers the profile while you watch.

Hotch let you skip out since its your first day. You keep spacing out and you're so out of it.

After the profile is delivered, the team goes back in the room and sits down.

They make a couple of calls to Garcia and find the unsub. The entire team besides Rossi and you stay behind to clean up while the team goes to find the umsub.

While talking to Rossi, it's hard to be attentive but you do read him a little bit.

It have a kind personality but he very obvious with his wisdom, money, and background. He wants people to know this stuff about him. But in group settings, he doesn't talk much unless the attention is on him.

You don't really know how to feel about him. You have developed some opinions towards the people you are starting to work with.

Morgan is charming but respectful, he's protective over his other teammates. You like him but you don't think he like you too much.

Hotch is tough, not very vulnerable. Doesn't show much emotion, he leads the team really well and always takes things seriously.

Emily is chill, very funny. You can tell you're already going to get along with her.

JJ is such a mom that it hurts. She's very sweet and has a nurturing side that she shows even at work.

After cleaning up, the team comes in with the unsub and the case is over.

It was an exciting first day, you didn't really do much but it was kind of exciting. You couldn't wait to get home because you're completely out of it.

JJ, Rossi, and you pack up the boxes and take them to the SUVs in the parking lot.

The team follows you and gets in their SUV and drives to the building that you had stops previously.

You all board the jet.

You sit in a corner away from everyone, Spencer sits across from you.

The jet ride wasn't that long but no one was really talkative, everyone was tired and ready to go home.

After exiting the jet and making your way into the BAU, Hotch stops you and congradulates you on your first day. "You did very well and I can't wait to work with you in the future."

You smile at him and shake his hand as you and Spencer walk out.

You walk out first and get into the elevator. As soon as you two leave the building, Spencer turns to you, "are you high?"

"No."

"Don't lie to me."

"Alright, fine. I snorted something when I was in the bathroom."

"Y/N, you had two years."

"Let's just go home, I'll figure everything out when I get there." You and Spencer walk home rather quickly.

When you reach the apartment, you immediately go for the bedroom.

You flop down and fall asleep.

A couple of hours pass by and you wake up with an urge to throw up, you run into the bathroom and puke into the toilet.

You flush and wash your mouth out with sink water, at least you felt better afterwards.

You go to walk back into the bedroom when you spot Spencer sitting on the couch in the living room with his head flopped over, he fell asleep on the couch.

You walk over to him and see an empty bottle sitting on the coffee table.

"Spencer," you whisper, "Spencer.." You sit down next to him and nudge him.

Spencer opens his eyes and looks at you, his eyes were read. He's drunk again. "Spencer, come lay down."

"Don't tell me what to do."

"I just want you to be comfortable," you stand up and put your hands up in defense.

Spencer gets an angry look on his face as he stands up and walks up to you. He gets in your face and slaps your so hard that you fling to the side.

You put your hand on your cheek and rub it, "what the fuck was that?"

"What? You deserved it," his words are slurred and he can barely stand, "you know what? All I hear is you complaining about something I do."

"Spencer, calm down."

"No," he puts his finger in your face, "you are such a bitch. I'm so glad your mom died because I love seeing you hurt."

He did it again.

This was something that you didn't think he would bring up because it was something very important to you.

You want to run, to cry, but you have absolutely nowhere else to go.

You decide it's not safe to be around Spencer when he's drunk so you run into the bathroom and lay on the floor until you think he's asleep.

But it takes too long and eventually, you fall alseep on the floor.