Toxicity (Spencer Reid X Reader)

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i was really close to just killing off y/n but then i got an idea so enjoy.

You slowly open your eyes, you had a breathing mask over your face and it hurt to breathe.

You felt your chest move as you tried to breathe, it was incredibly sore.

It took you a moment for your vision to go from blurry to normal. You look around, you feel the IV that you're hooked up to as you spot the heart rate monitor.

You adjust your hearing, the beeping and the sound of the heart monitor fills your ears.

You keep trying to hold your eyes open to look around the room.

No one was there.

You're so tired. You just want to go back to sleep but you're worried about Spencer. You want to make sure the rest of the team is okay.

Just then a nurse walks in.

She sees that you're awake. She's was holding a bag of fluid, she was only intended to change it.

She pauses for a moment and walks out of the room.

She comes back later with the doctor.

The doctor walks up to you with a clipboard, he asks you multiple questions about how you are feeling. He fills you in with everything.

You had to go into surgery to remove the bullet and stop the bleeding. He said you would be fine to go home within a couple of days to week depending on how you recover from the the surgery.

You thank him and he leaves.

The nurse comes in with Spencer, he had been crying.

His eyes were so red and puffy.

He really cared about you, you've never really seen him cry. He's tough, that's why it was so weird to see him cry now.

He slowly walks up to the hospital bed.

He gently touched your hand, he was so hesitant. It was like he was scared he was going to hurt you somehow.

"W..where's the team?" you move the oxygen mask aside so that you can talk clearly.

"They are waiting outside. Are you okay?"

"Never better."

He smiles but his eyebrows were still burrowed and he was still worried.

"I thought I was going to lose you," another tear escapes both of his eyes quickly. He was truly heart broken and still in shock.

"But you didn't and when this is over we can go home."

"If I ever," Spencer sniffles, "ever made the impression that I ever didn't love you  I was wrong. I love you more than anything and the thought of losing you forever crushed me. I need you," Spencer reaches up to give you a kiss on the forehead.

You wanted to touch him, hug him, or be close to him.

You tried to move a little but you were still extremely sore. Spencer stops you, "just rest, you need to rest."

You move you hand to hold his.

He holds it back gently, you've never seen him this scared to touch you. He was acting like you were glass that he was going to drop.

"I love you," you say while a tear falls down the side of your face.

"Do you want me to get the rest of the team? They really want to see you."

You slowly nod.

You watch as Spencer walks out of the hospital room.

You take this moment to look down at yourself, you're covered up with a white blanket and you're wearing a hospital gown. There's a bunch of stickers all over you with wire connected to them.

You look inside the gown and see the wound, there's stitching near your stomach. It was very bruised.

You lean your shakey hand down to touch it. You wince because it hurts.

You see the team in the hallway and slowly move your hands your side. They stop and Spencer talks to them for a second, only two of them came in so that's probably what Spencer told them.

Hotch and JJ came in first.

You immediately try to start talking, "I am so sorry. I never should've went into the barn alone."

He puts his hand up, "I know you know your training. This was a highstake situation but please tell one of us next time."

You nod at him.

JJ walks up to you as Hotch leaves, "I was so scared that we were going to lose you. I was really getting used to you being apart of this team."

You smile at her.

"I was getting used to you guys too."

She smiles back, "please take care of yourself."

Morgan and Emily walk in next, "you've never looked better," Morgan says while smiling.

He has such a bright smile.

"I've never felt better," you say. You can hear how rapsy your voice is.

"Please never do something like that again," Emily says, "I don't think I can handle losing any of my teammates."

"It won't, I clearly have learned my lesson,"you say.

They both leave as you see Garcia running down the hallway holding a basket. You didn't really expect to see her since you were thousands of miles away but she's really over the top.

She walks as fast as she can to the hospital room in her heels.

She brings in the gift basket and sits it in one the chairs next to your hospital bed, "how are you feeling? Are you okay?"

You can tell she was really worried about you, you never had much time to connect with her on a personal level. You felt lucky to be apart of this team, they all really cared about you.

Even after everything they saw you do.

"I'm fine, Garcia," you say.

"Oh, thank God," she says as she takes a deep breathe, "don't ever ever do something like that again."

She talks really fast.

"How many times am I going to have to here that?"

"Right, sorry but it's true. I'll leave you to rest."

She leaves and Spencer comes back in.

"How the hell is Garcia here?"

He shrugs his shoulders.

Spencer sits down in the seat next to the gift back that Garcia left.

Spencer goes to put something out of his pocket but you can't tell what is was because he hid it in his hand.

"What is that?"

Spencer stands up and gets on one knee. He was very tall so he still reached the hospital bed very well.

He shows a tiny velvet black box and opens it, a diamond ring was in it.

"Will you marry me?"

also im aware that im copying how JJ and Will got engaged 😔✌