Toxicity (Spencer Reid X Reader)

35

Months Later...

You were finally out of recovery.

You spent the last couple of months in and out of doctors appointments to make sure that your wound was healing properly. That is wasn't causing any further damage or if there was an infection forming.

You had to only eat liquids for most of the time because you were having trouble eating.

Even when Spencer was tired after work, he would make sure that you showered and ate. He took very good care of you.

You were happy to see it.

You two hadn't argued or gotten into a fight in a while.

All he did was take care of you for months and that was enough to prove that he genuinely loved you.

You were still a bit sore after you got your stitches removed but you could still move around and take care of yourself without assistance.

You took a long time off of work.

It took forever to convince Hotch to let you come back to work.

You were finally able to go back to work.

You woke up to your alarm, you were very tired. It was hard to get your sleep schedule back into place after a while of not being able to sleep unless you were completely exhausted because of the pain.

But you dragged yourself out of bed.

You were honestly scared to go back, you knew you were taking a risk when you applied but you didn't know you wouldt actually get shot.

You tried to shove your anxiety down and act like you are okay.

You take a deep breath and get dressed quickly, walking in the kitchen. Spencer has breakfast prepared.

Spencer gives you a peck before you both sit down and eat.

You play with your food and eat it a bit.

"How are you feeling?"

"Fine."

"Are you ready to go back?"

"Yeah, I guess."

"I know it must be hard, if you need me to be there. I love you," Spencer touches the back of your hand.

You were kind of irritated, you didn't want anyone to make a big deal about this. You just wanted things to go back to normal even if you were anxious. You wanted to deal with your anxiety on your own.

You nod and give a small smile to him.

"Are you okay?"

"Yes, I'm fine," your tone was rude.

Spencer doesn't respond. You know he was surprised by your tone.

You get up and put your shoes on.

Spencer frantically throws away the rest of the food on the plates and puts the plates in the sink.

He glance and see he already had his shoes on, you grab your keys and head out the door. Spencer follows you and you lock the door.

You two walk down the stairs and out of the apartment building.

It was pretty quiet on the way to the BAU. He kept trying to hold your hand or kiss you, but you continously rejected his advances.

You didn't know why you weren't being yourself, but you were very irritated.

You two finally made the short walk and got in the elevator, Spencer kept glancing over at you.

You looked back every time.

You took a deep breath before the elevatore reached the last number and prepared yourself for the day.

You needed to act normal, because you wanted everyone else to.

The elevator lets out.

You step through the glass door, eyes go to you. All of them are thinking about what happened, they are going to ask you if you're okay or try to feel sorry for you but you don't want that.

Emily and Morgan are at their desks, waiting for Hotch to call the meeting.

Morgan was sitting with his feet on his desk, he moves them and stands up, "look who's back."

He smiles, he has such a bright smile.

He gives you a tight hug.

Emily gives you a hug. You take a chance to glance over to your desk. Yet, another gift basket.

"Garcia?"

"Yeah, she was excited to hear that you were coming back to work," Emily says as she pulls you into a grief hug.

You chuckle a bit.

"How are you feeling?" JJ asks.

"I'm feeling great, ready to go back to work thats for sure."

You glance over at Spencer, he seemed sad. You treated him like crap this morning and you were acting completely different towards you coworkers. You felt bad but you didn't have time to apologize right now.

Emily looks over at Spencer, "why the long face?"

Spencer snaps out of it, "uh, nothing. We should start heading in the conference room. Hotch is going to call the meeting any minute."

Emily and Morgan glance at each other, then at you, then back at Spencer.

You hated being with a group of profilers, they know everything even when you don't want them to.

You all walk in the conference room after Hotch calls the meeting. You all take your seats while JJ introduces a new case in a different city.

You all do the usual and give input, then Hotch ends the meeting where you all prepare for the jet ride. Eventually you all board the jet where you talk about the case and assign positions then eventually leave the jet.

Spencer tries to talk to you while you are in the car together.

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine," you look out the window.

"Why can't you look at me?"

You glance over at him for a moment.

"It's nothing personal, I didn't even notice."

"Why are you ignoring me?"

"I'm not ignoring you Spencer."

Your conversation was cut off. You and Spencer kept quiet during each car ride after you talked to someone related to the victim's.

You eventually make your way to the police station.

You get out of the car before Spencer and walk into the police station. He grabs your arm and turns you around.

"Tell me what I did."

"You didn't do anything, just drop it. Don't embarrass me."

"Then just tell me what is wrong."

"Stop acting like you care."

He scoffs, "like I care? What the fuck are you talking about? I took care of you these past couple of months. I watched you die in my arms! And now..now you're acting like I don't care?"

You look over at the room where the team is, they are looking. Practically everyone in the room was looking

Spencer turns around and walks out of the police station.

You stand there, clouded with too many emotions and thoughts.

IM SO FUCKING CLOSE TO PUTTING SOME SORT OF DDLG IN ANY OF MY STORIES. i wish i would've made the unsub story one from the start. i might rewrite it