Toxicity (Spencer Reid X Reader)

6

Then you look back up at the mirror.

You realized, there was a part of you that still craved loved and affection. You're tough exterior was trying to wear itself away.

You push everything down and decided to go back to the room with Garcia.

She's on the phone with Morgan again.

They are flirting. You sit back down in the chair and Garcia turns around after hanging up the call and jumps, "you've got to stop sneaking up on me like that."

You sit back down in the chair.

"What were we talking about again?"

"You and Spencer," Garcia plays around with her fuzzy pen.

You examine around her desk top. Lots of fuzzy pens, little figurines, tiny stuffed animals, and rubber toys(i know what you're thinking😐). It definitely has a lot of personality.

She's very bright too, she's nice.

But over the top, you tolerate her and kinda like her but somewhere you are annoyed by her.

"I'm thinking of breaking things off with him."

"Awe, why?"

"He's just not really the one, you know?"

"I get it, but I have to say he does talk about you a lot."

"What does he say?"

"He said you were the most perfect girl that he'd been looking for. He seemed to really like you, he never really liked anyone as much as he liked you and Maeve."

What?

How did he like you if he treated you the way he did? I mean, it was fun for a while but you want a change for once in your life. Maybe it was because you told him that you liked that stuff when you started dating.

You even told him you had a fantasy.

And you walked in on him fucking another girl, you pulled his gun on the girl and then had sex with him after you ran her out of the apartment.

He let you relive all of your wild fantasies.

Do you even know his true colors?

"Who's Maeve?"

"His ex. He watched her..."

"Watched her what?"

"Die."

"Oh," then you quickly change the subject, "I might try to patch things up."

"I hope you do. You know this is nice, having someone to talk to while I sit in this office all day."

"I was getting bored after I finished the paperwork."

"You finished all that paperwork in a couple of hours?"

"Yeah, I got through to pretty quickly. Then I checked through it."

"Wow, you are the female Reid."

"I wish, imagine all the stuff I could know. When I was younger, I used to tell everyone random facts I knew. My grandmother called me a walking encyclopedia."

(this is a true fact about me)

"Spencer does that all the time, what facts do you know?"

"I know that statistically Canada has the highest cocaine use."

"That's really random, where do you learn this stuff?"

"I don't really know."

After long talks with Garcia about random shit, hours pass and the team gets back. Surprisingly, Garcia was very good company. You lost track of time talking to her. You didn't even think to look at the time.

It's dark outside by the time they get here.

You walk up to Spencer and ask him how the case went and he says it went well.

Then Hotch asks you into his office.

You follow him into his office, everyone went quiet. Hotch closes the door and was silent for a moment while he looks through the files.

He picks a couple of them up and opens them while scanning through each of the pages.

You stand, quietly while looking at him.

Then he set the files down and looks at you, you're terrified that he's gonna point out something wrong.

"Well done, your training programs will start tomorrow. I'll show you where to go tomorrow," Hotch shakes your hand and leads you outside.

The rest of the ream had already cleared out except Spencer.

You and Spencer walk out together and into the elevator. You get out of the elevator once it reaches the first floor and walk out of the building.

While you two are walking home side by side, you try to make conversation.

"Who are you?"

"What do you mean?"

"What's your true colors?"

"Don't you know me? We've been living together for over a year."

"I talked to Garcia, she told me the nice things you said about me. I was thinking that the only reason we ever did that stuff was because I told you I wanted it."

Spencer stops and looks at you.

You stop and look back at him.

"So, you don't want it rough like this anymore?"

"No." you turn to face him.

"What do you want then?" he turns toward you and looks down at you.

You put your hands on him, "I want to see who you truly are. I want to know you, Spencer."

Spencer takes a deep breath and continues walking..

You throw up your hands and walk fast to catch up with him.

You two reach his apartment.

You decide to just ignore him if he didn't want to talk to you about this, maybe you should break up with him. You go into the bathroom and wash your face and teeth.

You walk out and go to your dresser.

You change into shorts and a baggy shirt. Then you feel a breath against your ear, Spencer is behind you.

He puts his hand on your waist and moves it onto your stomach.

He whispers, "do you really wanna know who I am?"

question: should they break it off?

if they don't, how should they repair the relationship?