Toxicity (Spencer Reid X Reader)

30

You woke up randomly in the middle of the night from a nightmare, you wanted to get up to see if Spencer was awake.

You get up and make your way to the bedroom where you open the door slowly and creep your head in the doorway. There's a sniffling sound coming from the bed.

You walk over to the bed and look at Spencer curled up, he had been crying too You didn't want to feel bad for him, but you did.

You got in the bed and curled up next to him. You get close to him and put your hand on his cheek.

You whisper to him, "I'm sorry."

You two remain eye contact as you lay next to each other.

"Why do we keep hurting each other?"

"I don't know, I'm sorry"

He scoots a little closer to you and puts his hand on your waist, "I'm so sorry. I never wanted to hurt you. We can figure this out together and whatever you do, I'm here for you."

"I so badly want it to be true this time."

"It is, y/n," Spencer says, "I promise it is."

You wanted to believe him, so badly. You have given him so many chances that he's continued to break.

"Prove it."

"I will, I'll prove it every day. I need you, please don't walk out on me."

You were going to give him one more chance but if it was blown then you would walk out and never look back.

Spencer leans in the for a kiss, your lips lock together so passionately.

You cuddle up together as Spencer gives you a kiss on the forehead. You felt his warm body heat up against you, you felt comforted.

You eventually fell back to sleep.

The Next Day...

You woke up and rolled over but Spencer wasn't there.

You gradually get out of bed, while trying to adjust yourself to reality. You get up and walk into the kitchen.

Spencer was sitting at the kitchen table. A bouquet of roses was sitting in the middle of two plates with breakfast food on them.

You didn't want to think about last night. You wanted what he said to be true but you didn't know if it was.

You were going through enough, considering getting an abortion. You didn't know if he was actually trying to be better or just manipulating you into staying with him.

But you promised yourself to only give him one more chance.

You go and sit down in front of him.

"I already made the appointment, we can call in and go together."

You say nothing.

"I'm sorry. I never considered how hard this must be for you, but I know now."

You play with you food, "I think if we're gonna continue this relationship then we need to go to therapy to get both of our shit straightened out."

"I agree. I need to get my shit together, I can't promise that there wouldn't be anymore fight but I promise I will never act like that ever."

"I don't need an apology, lets just go back to normal."

"Do you need me to run you a bath or something?"

"No, I'll be fine. I just want to get the procedure over with. What time is the appointment?"

"It's soon, I wanted to get the earliest so that we wouldn't have to wait forever."

"I'm gonna go get dressed."

You get up and go into the bedroom, pick out a basic outfit. You go in the bathroom and take a quick shower, get out, then get dressed and quickly blow dry your hair.

You go in the living room and put your shoes on. Spencer was in the kitchen finishing up the dishes.

He tells you to give him a moment to get dressed, he comes back out a few minutes later to put on his shoes. You grab the keys and you both walk out.

You make sure to lock the door as you close it behind you.

You two walk together down the stairs, out of the building, and onto the street.

It wasn't a long walk to the doctor's office. Spencer held your hand, he could tell how nervous you were.

When you got there, you tell the receptionist you were there.

It wasn't long before your name was called, you told Spencer to wait in the waiting room because you wanted to do the procedure alone.

A nurse took you back to a room after weighing you and checking your height and you sat on the bed, waiting for the doctor to come in.

It took a while.

Nervously, you bounced your leg up and down and picked at your finger nails. You were trying to mentally prepare yourself for what was going to happen in a few moments.

This wasn't an easy choice, not a choice that you would want to make but you knew you had to.

For the well being of the possible baby inside of you and yourself.

A doctor finally enter the room with a cart with multiple machines that you couldn't name. Another with a needle and syringe.

The doctor asks you to lay down and puts your feet up on the things at the end of the seat. You do so.

"This is going to be quick, I'm going to numb your cervix and then I'll use this speculum and suction to suck out the pregnancy tissues. You should feel a thing," she says as she sits down in front of you.

You nod as you look down at the doctor.

The other doctor hands her the needle and syringe, you feel a slight pinch. She waits a moment and inserts the speculum.

"Do you feel that?" she asks.

"No."

You can't see much but you see a long tube, she inserts the tube and suction out the pregnancy tissue.

After she takes everything out and puts it on the tray that it was on.

"That's it, do you need me to help with anything else?"

"No thank you."

"Okay," her and the other doctor walks out. You put your feet down and put your clothes back on.

You walk out and go into the waiting room, Spencer stands up as he sees you.

He gives you a hug and you two walk out together. He holds your hand as you two walk back home.

When you make it home, you and Spencer sit on the couch and talk.

You were quite overwhelmed so you start crying, Spencer hugs you tight as you lay your head on his chest. He whispers, "you didn't do anything wrong, everything is going to be okay."

He gives you a kiss on the forehead and you lay into him, his warmth and touch made you feel a little bit more at ease.

"I love you," you say looking up at him.

"I love you too," he gives you a kiss on the lips.