Toxicity (Spencer Reid X Reader)

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(i was really busy today and ill be really busy tomorrow so im going to try to get two chapters in before i go to bed. this one is going to be short )

You say goodbye to Morgan as you decide to walk over to Hotch and Spencer. You hoped Spencer wasn't going to be mad at you.

Hotch asks for you and Spencer to come in his office.

You look behind you to see some of the team members that haven't left yet, looking at you.

You and Spencer sit in two of the seats sitting in front of Hotch's desk. Hotch sits in his desk chair and looks out at you two.

"Spencer..y/n has brought it to my attention that you have had some troubles with alcohol and we just want to help you."

Spencer slowly turns his head to look that you.

"Spencer, don't be mad. I didn't do this to get you in trouble, you have just progressed and you're doing reckless things like drinking and driving. You almost choked me out last night."

Spencer looks down at his hands. You didn't know if he knew what he did.

You put your hand on Spencer's, "Spencer, I love you but you need help or else things will only get worse."

Spencer starts crying, you've never seen him cry. Ever.

"We want you to voluntarily put yourself in rehabilitation facility until you are no longer a danger to yourself and others."

"Fine," his voice is rapsy and low.

"This is what's best for us," you get up and give Spencer a kiss on the cheek.

"I'll go make some calls," Hotch gets up and goes into another room, you can see him on the phone.

You've been through this process before. You've seen your mom calling multiple rehabs and mental hospitals to see if they have an opening for you.

(this is also a true fact about me😎)

You blocked out most of that but this really brought back memories. You and Spencer have a brief conversation while you two wait for Hotch to get back.

You notice him bouncing his knee up and down, he's anxious.

"Are you okay?"

"I'm sorry, I..I never wanted to hurt you."

"I'll be fine as long as you get the help you need, I love you."

"I'm so sorry."

You both stand up as you pull him into a hug, he hugs you tight. You both hold onto each other as you cry.

Hotch walks in while you two are hugging, "I found a place." You pull away from the hug as you sniff in your stuffy nose and look over at Hotch.

"Where is it?"

"It's thirty minutes away, they have a place for him."

"Okay, I'll take him. Thank you."

Hotch offers to come with for support, you all walk out of the building and into the elevator together. Then you make your way out of the building, the air is crispy this night. That feeling is so nostalgic for you.

You all go to Hotch's car, you sit in the front seat with Hotch while he drives and Spencer sits in the back seat. The drive is awfully quiet.

We all get out of the car, you feel the chilly air on your skin.

You are trying to find at least some comfort in this situation but you were sad. You knew Spencer was sad and you hated it.

Both of you couldn't seem to stop hurting each other.

You make your way into the rehab facility where you check in for Spencer. You, Spencer, and Hotch sit in the waiting area while they get everything ready for him.

Eventually, a woman wearing scrubs comes down the hallway and calls his name.

You all stand up.

Spencer gives you a tight hug and walks down the hallway with her. His head is slouching as he turns back to look at you, his eyebrows are burrowed. You hated seeing him like this.

You almost start crying but you don't, you know this is what's best for him.

"Are you going to be okay?"

"Yeah, I'm going to stay with a friend tonight."

Spencer glanced over to you one more time before disappearing behind the corner. You have to keep repeating to yourself..

this is what is best for both of you.

YALL DONT KNOW HOW CLOSE I WAS TO MAKING HOTCH OR MORGAN KISS Y/N