My Book of Poetry

Darkness

As I was standing there, frozen solid, unable to move, I began to think. The room was pitch black, no source of any light was visible. Somehow I thought this had a deeper meaning. That this symbolized something, something much greater. This darkness represented a period of my life. Every part of that dark time came tumbling forward in my mind. The bullying, stress and pressure from school and trying to make friends. I had long passed that but the memories, the felt so new and fresh in my mind every time I thought of them. At that time, there was nothing I could do to make things better. I figured every happy thing wouldn't last long, it never did. But then again, does darkness really have to be a bad thing? We have been conditioned to associate darkness with all kinds of negative things; evil, fear, emptiness, but could it have another positive vibe to it? Have you ever thought without darkness how would you appreciate the light? Similarly enough do you notice how dark it gets before a storm? It can be pretty terrifying, but once you notice the clouds lifting and the sky becoming brighter doesn't it make you feel less tense? 

Darkness could also represent the unknown. Now while many people may be afraid of the unknown, many still embrace it. Nobody knows what's in store for them in the future, but they leap into the day ready to conquer anything that comes their way. I felt so consumed in my thoughts, almost as if I was drowning in them. I felt like I could best describe darkness. Darkness was the relief of the everyday monsters that we are surrounded by with flesh and emotions for a short period of time. Sometimes I felt afraid, alone in the dark but right now, I was happy the way it was. In this room, despite it being isolated it felt quite safe. I didn't want to eventually venture back out or be found. Being alone in the dark was better than being suffocated and suppressed in the light around everyone else. 

I was beginning to see that many things can be learned from the dark. Transformation is one thing. One would experience transformation not only visibly but also internally as they learn to transform their fear of darkness into appreciation for it. The second thing is growth. One begins to grow out of fearing darkness not only from the unknown aspect but also the thoughts and other emotions associated with darkness. Darkness can be a good escape from reality and teach us many things along the way. But just like everything else, it feels good for a short period of time. 

Once I realized this I knew I had to find a way out. I felt around and located something, they felt like matches. I lit one to get a proper look around. There was a window not too far up. I stacked some boxes and climbed up and out. I stood there for a few minutes embracing the beautiful sunlight. I had to come to appreciate the darkness as it made for a warm feeling that I made it into the light again.