My Book of Poetry

Some things are not better left unsaid

I love you to pieces but I really think you should leave me

Here me out: You deserve so much better and I tell you that everyday when we talk. You're such an amazing guy and me? Well I'm just no good for you. After everything I told you about my past, you still chose to stay, be the miracle I needed, the blessing I prayed for countless nights before. Yes it will hurt, but I will have to get over it because I could never make you happy. Not like some of those girls out there. You have so many choices, so many amazing girls that would give anything to call you theirs so why did you choose me and continue to choose me everyday? You know how complicated my life is, but yet you try so hard to be a part of it, stand by my side and face whatever comes my way, our way. You make my problems yours, and never want to see me hurt or cry. But in return, all I do is cause you pain.

From the day I met you, and we started talking I knew you were the one for me. I fell in love with the words, the actions, the feelings, I fell in love with me and who I was when I was with you. But then reality kicked in, and I knew all this happiness was only going to be short term, because that's how happiness worked for me. It never lasted long. I see you in my future but would you really want a girl like me in your future? Someone whose had a past like me, done things like me, been called names like I have? This is why I keep telling you that you're better off without me. I don't for a second doubt your love for me, but when you have been hurt like I have before, you start to believe certain things said about yourself. You start to believe that you deserve all the bad in the world and I would never want any of that to fall on you or our kids, your kids.

And for all these reasons, I think you would be way better off without me