Chased by Destiny (Broken Promises Series #1)

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Alunsina's POV

"Another chance? Oo, tangina. Gago ka ba? Go!"

Blaire snapped as she said those words. My lips parted out of disbelief.

Hindi ba't dati ay galit na galit siya kay Clyde?

I was busy approving some papers when she said that so I slowly let go of my pen and looked at her with so much confusion on my face.

"Bitch, what the heck?" I scoffed while my lips were parted. My brows even furrowed a bit.

"Anong what the heck?" she arched a brow on me. "Magbalikan na kayo! Basta ako, boto ako," pumipilapilantik pa ang mga kamay niya.

Ivory wasn't here with us. She still have classes.

"Galit na galit ka dati kay Clyde, hindi ba?" ako naman ang nagtaas ng kilay sa kaniya.

She glared at me and even cleared her throat before talking.

"Gago, ilang taon na ang nakalipas, Alunsina!" she even stood up while dramatically explaining.

Ilang taon na ang nakalipas..

And it still hurts.

"5 years," I whispered to myself. "It's been 5 years.."

"Oo, 5 years ka nang tuyot," Blaire scoffed.

I quickly looked at her and defended myself. "Hoy, anong tuyot! I had Trev!" I hissed.

"Oo, si Trev na tanga," she rolled her eyes.

It kinda sucks that Trevor and I didn't work.

"It just.. didn't work," I shrugged.

It didn't work because we were so busy.. chasing our dreams, doing the good and best in our careers.

Maybe it's just.. not meant to be.

"Because you didn't make it work," she corrected.

I took a heavy sigh. She has a point. I could have make way for our relationship to work.

But I didn't.

"Kasi mahal mo pa rin si Clyde," dagdag pa nito na lalong nagpakunot ng noo ko. "And I know that," she chuckled a little.

Do I?

Do I still love him?

Hanggang ngayon, hindi ko pa rin masagot ang bwisit na katanungang 'yan.

Maybe because.. I never had the chance to get some answers.

Some.. true answers.

Simula nang sabihin ni Clyde na.. nagsinungaling lang siya sa akin, I started to have some trust issues and Trevor was the only exception to that.

The day Clyde told me those hurting words, it felt that my world just.. collided. I was in total darkness. I didn't even know where can I find light.

After the last time I saw him at the church, wala na akong narinig pa tungkol sa kaniya, tungkol sa kanila ni Shamiyah. Ni hindi ko nga alam na hindi pala natuloy ang.. 'kasal' nila.

Sinabi ko nalang sa sarili ko noon na, 'Masaya na siya sa kaniya. Tama na,'

Because maybe it was really too much. I was really too much. And because of that, I slowly started to consume myself.

Masyado akong nagpakatanga, to the point na unti-unti nang nauubos ang sarili ko.

It was so painful, I don't even know where to start as I tried to moved on. It felt like I was in.. total darkness.