Chased by Destiny (Broken Promises Series #1)

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Alunsina's POV

"That was all.."

My lips parted out of shock and.. fear. I wasn't prepared for this conversation. I just listened to him while he was telling me about all of the struggles he had in the past. I was crying in pain while he was talking, too.

Tanging mga hampas lang ng alon at tunog ng pag-iyak ko ang naririnig namin sa ngayon. I felt so weak so I leaned my head on top of his shoulder. He then caressed my head and hugged me like.. he doesn't want to let go.

I heard him sob.

I always have known that he has serious problems with his Dad but these?

It was too much. I never expected him to suffer so much like that.

And that was the reason why he doesn't open up his problems to me..

I lived my life thinking that he cheated on me. That he chose another woman instead of me. The pain was too much, I can't even explain how painful it was for me. It made me question myself.. my worth.. that maybe I was just really not enough for him.

I lived a life full of lies.

I wanted to be angry at him for making me live my life like that but I just couldn't anymore.. because of the things I heard tonight.

I may cried for almost everyday in those five years..

But him? His sufferings were so much painful than me. It was so unfair. He suffered all alone. He was all alone.

Dapat kasama niya ako sa laban na 'yun, eh..

But he chose to let me go.. for me to not suffer with him. And it was the most painful truth I have ever heard.

I should have been with him during those days. We should have fought together..

"I told you, not lose everything just for me.." I said in a weak voice while still hugging him. My tears just couldn't stop from falling. "You don't need to do everything just for me.." my voice cracked out of pain.

I then knew that tears started falling from his eyes because of the teardrops I felt on my back. Mas lalo pa niyang hinigpitan ang pagkakayakap sa akin. It felt like this was my first time to hug him again because it just felt so.. surreal.

"You are my everything, Alunsina.."

"You're so selfish," I punched his chest while I was still bawling my eyes out. He just let me punch him until I got so weak. "You're so fucking selfish.." I weakly said while looking up to see his face. He was crying so hard, too. Sobrang nanghihina na ako kaya napadausdos nalang ang mukha ko sa dibdib niya. My chest feels so heavy as well. Sobrang hirap na para sa akin ang paghinga.

"I'm sorry.. I'm sorry.." paulit-ulit lang niya iyong sinasabi habang umiiyak ako sa dibdib niya. The sound of my cries went louder and louder as I felt in so much pain, remorse, guilt, frustration, and.. anger.

Clarke Salvatore.

It was all good. Everything was almost perfect not until he came. Until now, I don't know why he dislikes me so much.

It haunted me down for.. five years.

"You should have told me everything.. We should have fought together.. win together.." my voice cracked as I wiped my tears away but they just couldn't stop from falling.

He caressed my back, trying to calm me down. "That's the problem.. you will stay with me if I will tell you everything," he said in a weak voice. Mas lalo pa akong napaiyak nang malakas. It took him a couple of seconds before he talked again. "And I don't want it," he looked at me with his bloodshot eyes.