Barriers - Taehyung || Complete

Ch. 39

The next morning I had to wake up very early so Lisa and I could get dropped off to my car without any troubles. Taehyung said that he's leaving at the end of the week and is hoping to see me again before he goes. I know he's going to ask me to move back to South Korea but there's some things I need to settle here before making that decisions. 

My job. 

My parents.

After getting home I got a little more sleep before I started my day. When I woke up, my phone was blowing up with messages. Since Taehyung said my name at the concert, people already started looking up who I was and once that was found, I started getting messages from a lot of strangers either congratulating me or wishing the worst for me. 

I scrolled through every message I received, and it was probably a bad idea. Even though there were people that were supporting me, it was weighed down by all the negativity I was getting. I felt a heavy feeling in my chest, not feeling good about this situation. I don't know how celebrities go through this. I know they just ignore it, but in the back of my mind all I could think about is that there's people that hate me. 

Not wanting to be alone, I made a call. 

"Hello?" the other end answered. 

"Amy..." I sighed. "I need to talk to you. I need someone to talk to."

"Of course," she said softly. "Are you doing okay? The events from last night already made the news. There's so many videos from the fans from last night, showing Taehyung confessing his love to you." 

"Yeah...I woke up to a lot of messages this morning. I was expecting this but I didn't think it was going to be this bad. I'm getting a lot of support messages so that's good, but I can't stop thinking about the hate messages I'm getting." 

"I'm sorry, y/n. It's not going to be easy from here on out but I can assure you that it is going to get better. The guys get hate comments all the time too but they just ignore it and remind themselves that there are people who care about them. One day you'll get to that point. And I really think that this news will die down in a few months. For now, we're all going to be here with you."

I softly smiled, feeling better at her words of encouragement. "Thanks, Amy. That makes me feel better."

"Anytime. So are we going to be seeing you before we leave?" 

"That's the plan. There's just some things I need to figure out and I will try be there to see you guys off."

"Great! I wish you luck and hope to see you at the end of the week." 

"Me too."

We both hung up and I stared at my phone as new messages were constantly coming in. Amy's right -- if I can't ignore the wrong messages then it's just going to consume me in the darkness. I just have to remember that there are people who are supportive and although sad, the world is always going to be filled with hate. I decided to put all of my social media on private so I won't be able to receive any more messages. I don't need to see the support or hate. I know it's always going to be there but I don't the need the validation. 

I got ready for the day and called my parents to tell them the news. They seemed to have found on their own social media about what happened and were just waiting for me to call them. They sounded pretty serious on the line. I'm sure they're not happy that I'm back together with Taehyung considering they watched him break my heart last year. This is going to be a tough hurdle to get through. 

We agreed to meet at a diner halfway between us so we could talk. My dad was concerned that people would notice me right away, but I told him I don't think the news will be as big here than it will be back in South Korea so I'm pretty sure no one will notice me.