Broken

chapter 2

Walking next to him, I felt my stomach turn, all the lunch I ate before is threatening to come up. Khalil helped settle these butterflies inside of me as we all walked to class. It felt weird walking in such a large group, but soon it broke off into just Khalil, Ryder, and I.

"I have to go to the bathroom before class." Feeling the nausea come up, before they could answer I ran to the bathroom and opened the largest stall, throwing up into the toilet.

It burned my throat and I didn't think I'd be okay. It hurts too much. Filled with guilt and nervousness, I emptied my stomach. The door opened and Khalil appeared in front of me.

"Oh my gosh, are you okay?" She asked rushing to my side and closed to bathroom stall door. I shook my head and felt myself throw up even more. I don't even know how long it's been, but it feels like forever and my throat hurts so bad. "Are you pregnant? What's wrong?"

I couldn't help but laugh through the tears that ran down my face. "I-I'm not pregnant." It's been a good few months since I've had sex with Xavier and I haven't been with anyone since.

I think I would have known if I was pregnant or not.

"I'm here okay." She whispered pulling my hair away from my face. "I'll get Ryder to get your bag." She pulled out her phone and text Ryder. "Do you have a ride home?"

I thought back to dad and knew he was busy in work and I didn't want even more reason to worry him. He's supposed to pick me up from school since he still hasn't made me keys.

"No, I don't and I don't have keys to my house." I cried throwing up again as another wave hit me. She sighed and brushed my hair out of my face.

"I'll just take you to my house." She said with a supportive smile. "If that's okay with you. The school nurse is probably just going to send you home."

I nodded my head and felt myself turn red when Ryder knocked on the bathroom stall with a quiet, "Khalil?"

"We're in here." She said looking down at me. "Can you stand up?"

Before I could try, she left my side to open up the stall door and came back to my side. She wrapped one of my arms around her neck and wrapped her arm around my waist, helping me stand up. I felt my legs feel heavy as I've been sitting down for so long.

She struggled to keep me up, so Ryder easily put his arm around my waist and held most of my weight. "I got you."

"This is so embarrassing." I whispered rinsing my mouth with the sink water. I did it twice before splashing my face. Khalil led the way while Ryder helped me walk. It felt nice having him so close to me and just his touch is making me feel better. Which is weird because now I'm feeling guilty again.

I don't know what they told the nurse, but she was happy to write me a pass to leave and didn't ask any questions. I texted my dad what happened and that I don't need a ride home as I waited for us to leave. Khalil sat down next to me with a smile. 

"I guess this is one way to get close to each other." She joked which made me crack a smile.

"This is so embarrassing and thank you for being so nice to me." I said and watched as Ryder crouched down in front of me.

"I'll put up the car, so just wait just a bit longer." He said as if I was a little kid in need of his protection, which I guess I did. I nodded my head and felt my cheeks turn red when I realized how green his eyes were.

"Help me." I told Khalil feeling my stomach turn again. She helped me to the bathroom where I emptied out my stomach again, more like what was left inside of it.

I've never thrown up so much until now.

Is this because of guilt? Why am I feeling so sick?

She answered Ryder's phone call and he was here seconds later. I rinsed out my mouth again and they helped me to the car.

"Wait. Should I really be trusting people I've just met?" I found myself blabbing on before I felt myself pass out.

Waking up, I was in a room I didn't recognize, but the smell was so comforting. I felt myself relax into the bed sheets.

Wait.

Screaming, I looked around and stumbled off the bed. "Where the hell am I?"

The door slammed open and I felt myself drop to the ground in a huddle on instinct. Shit. Mom really messed me up.

Ryder rushed to my side and put a hand on either of my shoulders. "What's wrong?"

I'm at his house? Or Khalil's?

"Where am I?" I whispered still startled at how bad I flinched. He sighed and looked down, his hair falling over before he looked back up at me.

"Me and Khalils house." He whispered and slid a bit away from me, leaning against the bed. "You scared the shit out of me."

I looked down at the ground, my hair falling over my shoulders, not really sure what to say. He sighed and met my eyes.

"Are you feeling better now? You passed out." He said watching as I nodded my head. "Are you hungry?" I nodded my head again, still not sure what to say really.

He stood up and offered me a hand. I felt myself shiver and looked up at him to see him smiling. Him smiling made my heart flutter. He went into the closet and pulled out a red and black pullover hoodie, handing it to me.

"Thank you, I'm Athena, by the way."

"I know."

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There's some drama. Anyways I hoped you enjoyed the chapter! Here a lil unknown facts:
This is probably my third or fourth attempt at trying to publish this book like the characters and the background of the main character. But this time I feel a bit more comfortable with this version.

Should I publish some drafts I had?