Waited for so long....(1/3)

Tests

Colleens POV

I am totally driving myself crazy with negative thoughts. After what the doctor said is all I can think about. I have always wanted a baby of my own. I would settle for one if that is all I can have even though we both always wanted two. Also I know Josh has wanted kids forever and the thought of me not being able to give him that upsets me and scares me. Will he leave me for someone who can? I have to stop. I will drive myself crazy.

I phone my regular doctor and explain to the receptionist about what the clinic found out and to get my test results transferred over. She says she can squeeze me in this afternoon since I tell her I will be on tour in a few days and won't be back for a week. I quickly jump in the shower while Josh ran to Starbucks. I get some clean clothes on and make my way down the stairs when I hear the front door open. "There's my girl" Josh says with a huge smile on his face. "HI baby" I say as I hug him. He kisses my forehead and says "Happy thoughts Colleen baby". I look up at him and tell him about the appt I have this afternoon and if he can come. "Yes for sure" he says. "I just have to cancel my meeting with Arnold" he adds. "Babe you don't have to come with me if you can't make it. It isn't going to be much fun for either of us" I say while giggling. "Babe we are married now and this your health. I am going" he says. I hug him tight as he texts Arnold that something came up. I really need him with me and so glad he wants to come.

Josh POV

We start driving to Colleens regular doctor and my mind starts thinking. "What do you think they will do in regards to testing?" I ask while holding Colleens left hand in my right. "Ummm probably some more blood work and maybe an internal exam. When I told the receptionist what had happened she said to be ready for the "works" " Colleen says with a pouty face and half laughing. I squeeze her hand as we pull into the parking lot. We walk in to the office together and Colleen checks in. About 10 minutes later they walk us back to an exam room and get Colleen to change into a gown. She changes and hops up onto the table as we wait for the doctor. The door creaks open a few minutes later and its Dr. Jansen, Colleens doctor she has been going to forever. We all say hello and then Colleen starts talking about the migraines and the clinic results and what the other doctor suggested to her about pregnancy problems. The doctor is looking through her chart and says to us that Colleen cannot use birth control pills anymore because the results show she is highly allergic to the filler in them. Fillers are what drug manufacturers use to add to the real drug when making the pills. We both nod. She asks when we want kids. "Baby when do you want kids?" Colleen asks. "I think in about 6 months or so is when we said we were going to start trying....when my tour is over right?" she adds and waits for my reply. I smile and say "whenever she is ready". Colleen rolls her eyes and smiles. The doctor tells us what they will be testing for today. They will be taking more blood from her and doing an internal exam and ultrasound. I nod and let the doctor do her thing. I look at Colleen getting poked and prodded and I can't help to feel bad for her. I snap out of it when the ultrasound machine comes out. The doctor says she is looking for eggs in her ovaries and how this is just a visual and the blood test will tell her more on the conception issues we are worried about. She finishes up with Colleen and tells us she will call us back tomorrow with results. She says the internal looks like there are no physical problems but the blood/hormone tests will tell her more. We are basically sitting on pins and needles until then. The doctor wishes us a good day and Colleen sits up from the exam bed. She has tears in her eyes. "I want a baby so bad. I hope the news is good" as she lunges in to hug me. I hug her tight and have tears in my eyes as well. I want to make her happy so bad. She would be such a great mom.