Waited for so long....(1/3)

Healed

Colleen POV

Julie came back with the injections to try to give me some energy. She rolled me over and gave me one in the butt and the other in the stomach. I cried a bit with that one. Josh was rubbing my hand as he kissed me. Julie looked at Josh and said "Josh she will be fine". I looked at him and he was crying. "Why are you crying Josh?" I said to him. "Colleen you have had nothing but problems and sickness for almost a year. You have sacrificed so much babe" Josh says. He is full out crying. He has hit the wall. He can no longer be strong. Julie excuses herself and makes her way home. I open my arms to Josh and he crawls into bed with me and I just hug him for 45 minutes as he cries. I have never seen him like this. He has crumbled. I rub his back and kiss his neck. I love this man. He starts hugging me back. "Colleen I can't do this again babe. I can't see you like this suffering." "Josh I will be fine. I just need to recover. Just a few more days honey" I say.

A few days later--

I am now at my 14 day bedrest I feel like a million bucks. I get showered and do my makeup and hair for the first time in over 2 weeks. I walk out of the bathroom and start putting clean sheets on our bed as Lilly sleeps. We have another hour before leaving for her and my checkup. Josh walks down the hall. He puts his hands over his mouth. "You look beautiful " he says and comes and hugs me. "Did I look ugly?" I say as I start laughing. "Never" he says. "you know what I mean. I have my wife back."

Josh POV

Colleen has done a full turn around. She looks great for having a baby 2 weeks ago. We take Lilly in the car to bring her and Colleen to the doctor before heading to Santa Barbara for July 4th celebration at her parents house tomorrow. My little family is all together. I am such a proud dad and husband. We get to the doctors office and walk Lilly in to the exam room. Dr.Jansen comes in and congratulates us. She checks outs Lilly and gives her some baby shots and she barely cries. She then turns her attention over to Colleen. She looks over her birth,after birth charts and shakes her head. "Colleen you have had a hard go at this for the last year hey?" she says. Colleen quickly replies "It was all worth it in the end" with a smile. "Well the next time you have a baby we are going to have you come in every two weeks. I am going to classify you with super high risk level." I start laughing. "there will not be a next baby" I say. Both Colleen and the doctor look at me and Colleen has tears in her eyes. Dr Jansen excuses herself and tells us she will see us at Lillys next set of shots. As soon as she leaves Colleen looks at me "What do you mean no next baby? We always said two Josh?" I look at her "Colleen I want you alive with me. This pregnancy and birth was so rough on you and I don't want to be greedy. I don't want to test fate" I say. She starts to cry and walks out of the exam room. I follow her out to the car and try to talk to her and she is soooo upset. "Colleen you had so much difficulty having Lilly. Please babe see it from my view. I want you healthy and I want to enjoy Lilly" I say. She looks away. "Lets not talk about this right now anyways we have lots of time to discuss things in a year or so." I reach for her hand and entertwine her fingers with mine. I love my wife. I love my life and my daughter and I refuse to test fate.

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