Waited for so long....(1/3)

Worried

Colleens POV

I blacked out. I slowly opened my eyes. I was so drowsy from the pain meds the doctor just gave me. Josh bends down and give me a kiss as he listens to the doctor tell him to bring me home and let me rest. I also hear the doctor say to stop taking the pill until she phones with the blood test results the next day. I nod sleepishly. Josh scoops me up and brings me out to his car. Rachel goes to her car to go home but asks Josh to get me to call her the next day. I cannot respond. I am so tired now but no longer in pain. I fall asleep until I feel the car stop. Josh is parking the car at our house. He picks me up and brings me right up to the bedroom and lays me under the covers and sits beside me and stroking my hair quietly with tears in his eyes. "Baby I have been so worried about you taking those pills since day one, please listen to the doctor and don't take them okay? We will find an alternative" Josh whispers. "OK baby. Can you cuddle me please I am so tired but don't feel any more pain." I ask. "Sure baby" as he climbs under the covers with me and wraps his arms around me. I close my eyes and tell myself never to lie to Josh again. I hate to see him worry and honestly if he kept something medical from me I would not be happy with him either.

Josh POV

I wake up the next morning to the phone ringing. Colleen and I feel asleep from the tiring day before. I get out of bed and run for the phone. 

"Hello?" I say

"This is Dr. Summers may I please speak with Colleen Evans" the doctor asks.

"Sure one second I will get her" as I run to the bedroom with the cordless phone.

I cover the mouthpiece and wake Colleen up to get the phone call. " Colleen its the doctor" I say as I pass her the phone. "Hello Dr Summer" Colleen says. I see Colleen looking at me as she listens to whatever the doctor is telling her. Tears start to form in her eyes and I hear her say "of course". She then hangs up and throws the phone across the room.

"Baby whats wrong?" as I sit beside her. "What did the doctor say?" I ask very concerned. Colleen is uncontrollably shaking and crying but she quiets down enough to say "She told me that I am allergic to the birth control I was taking which is why I was getting so many headaches." "Thats okay baby. We will find another form of birth control" as I rub her back. "Thats not the worst part Joshua! She told me that my hormone levels are drastically low based on the blood test I had. She says she wants me to come in for testing because she doesn't believe it will be easy for me to get pregnant as I am not very fertile". With that she starts sobbing into my shoulder apologizing that she won't be able to give me kids but I can barely understand her. I sit back and grab a hold of her face to force her to listen to me. "Colleen baby. Please do not worry unless we need to worry. We are in this together. My life is complete with you in it. If we cannot have kids of our own flesh and blood then we will adopt, but until we  find out what is really going on we cannot jump to any conclusions." I kiss her hard. I hate to see her heartbroken. She has always wanted to be a mom and get pregnant. I hope it happens for us. I would be heartbroken if we cannot conceive but I would never tell her that. I have dreamed of our kids and what they will be like for 6 years. Right now I put on a strong smile for her and we then start to discuss the next steps for the next doctor appt.