Waited for so long....(1/3)

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Colleen POV

I am home alone the next morning editing videos as I will be away in two days for a week to go on tour and I need a stock pile of videos to upload. The phone rings and my heart sinks. I answer the phone and its Dr Jansen. She explains to me that the results came back and it doesn't look like it will be easy for me to conceive. She says it is about 1/100000 chance naturally. However I can go on hormone shots over the next few months to increase my chances to prep my body so that when Josh and I are ready we will have a better chance of getting pregnant. The downfall is the shots need to be done daily [in the butt] 3 weeks on and 1 week off and that if we do get pregnant there is always a higher chance of twins/triplets. I thank her for the information as she explains that she has called over a prescription to the pharmacy for me. I hang up and think. This is great news and bad mixed into one. I am glad that there are meds to help me to get pregnant but I am sad because what if I still can't. Also will Josh let me take the hormones when he wasn't happy with me even taking the pill? Even though the doctor explained to me that its pure hormones with no chance of giving me headaches since there are no fillers. However she did warn me that I will have an increased sex drive. Then I thought Josh might like that part as I started to giggle to myself. Just then my phone beeps. Its Josh. He wanted to know if the doctor called me back and whether it was good news or bad. He was shooting a collab video with Arnold. I told him she did and it was good and bad. The next text was clear from him. He is coming home now.

Josh POV

I leave Arnolds house quite quickly. I drive home and as I do so my mind is racing. I so want babies with Colleen. So bad. Just one if nothing else. What if  she is sitting at home alone in tears right now and I wasn't there. What if...I have to stop thinking and wait until Colleen tells me what is going on.

I walk through the door and the house is quiet. I look around and cannot find her on the main floor so I make my way upstairs. I find her in our bed crying softly laying there holding Snoopy. "Babe what happened? Why didn't you call me if you are this upset?" I say as I sit beside the bed on the floor to face her and grab for her hand. She explains everything to me. Colour drains from my face as I listen to her. She is so upset. She thinks she has failed me and that I am gonna leave her. "I dont blame you baby if you want to find a girl to give you a baby" she says. "Colleen the doctor says it will be hard to get pregnant, not impossible. We will just have to try more often" as I giggle to lighten the mood. She smiles. "Will you be okay with me taking the shots?" she asks. "As long as they are safe and not for too long ok?" I reply. She nods. "When do you want to start with the shots baby?" I ask her. She rolls onto her back and I can see her start thinking. "It is July 4th tomorrow so lets start then. I have to take them for 3 months before trying to build up my eggs supply. That means we can start trying by early October and my tour ends mid November before Christmas" she says. "is that good with you?" she asks. "I am here when you need me. Your wish is my command" I say laughing as she smacks me in the chest. "I will go get the meds from the pharmacy right now then because they will be closed tomorrow because of the holiday" I say as I go to stand up. Colleen pops up and says she wants to come and ask the pharmacist some questions as well. I smile and take her hand. We walk out to the car and listen to Justin of course. She is finally happy. 

We pull into the pharmacy parking lot and go to the counter to pick up the meds. Colleen gives them her name and they hand us a huge bag. The pharmacist explains to us this is one month supply. She tells us how to inject them as they can't be self injected and some of the side effects we should watch for. She is extremely helpful and puts my mind at ease. Colleen and I turn around with the medication and walk out hand in hand. We then decide to go for sushi on our drive home and then go home to pack to go to Santa Barbara tomorrow for 4th of July. One of our favourite holidays. Colleen leaves for tour on the 5th with Rachel so I grab every minute we can to spend together.

Colleens Pov

It is 4th of July and I am painting a US flag on my face before we drive out to Santa Barbara. We haven't seen our family since the wedding. I am beyond excited. The last few days have been so stressful for us so it will be great  to get our minds off of the baby thing. Josh has gone to get Starbucks for our drive. I hear him come upstairs and ask if I am ready to go. " I am babe but you need to give me this shot remember. I am nervous" I say in the same breath. Josh walks over to the medication and grabs one of the prefilled hormone shots. I am half afraid. I don't like needles but I want a baby so this is how it will be for at least 3 months. Josh wipes the area with an alcohol wipe and puts the injection in quickly. It hurts a little but not too bad. "I hope it didn't hurt too bad babe?" he asks. "Nope" I reply as he starts rubbing my butt where the injection went in. I smile at him and snuggle him. " I am so sorry you need to do this babe" he says. " At least we knew ahead of time of the issues. Lets just cross our fingers that by Christmas we are pregnant." He just nods and kisses me.