No Going Back

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It felt like a train wreck, except only inside my head. The images, voices, and just everything hurt.

My memories were coming back only to hit me like a whiplash.

Right I should reverse a while back right?

Yeah I should.

× Two Hours Ago ×

I watched as Elijah stormed out of the house, I was about to run after him, but Reina stopped me.

"He's been like that for a week Val, you're just really frustrating right now." I could only nod unsure of how to feel of what she just told me.

She sighed, "You locked yourself in your room for a week and when he tried to talk to you, you shut him out completely. You can't just expect him or anyone here to just listen to you when wouldn't even listen to us."

My patience was thin right now and I was really trying not to snap and get angry because I didn't even know why I was feeling angry or why I wanted to snap.

"Anyways what he means is that you can't expect us to just listen to you. We deserve as much respect as you do." With that she walked off towards the direction that Nathan and Veronica had walked off in during Elijah's snap.

"So, how long have her and him been together?" Xavier asked clearly jealous. "Apparently for a year." I whispered sitting down on the couch.

He smiled which made me confused, "I'm happy for her. She finally found someone for her."

"Yeah same." Is what I wanted to say but I didn't.

Instead what I said was, "What?" He chuckled at me. "I've found someone too you know? I was just sending him glares knowing that you'd be watching me."

I pouted, "Bastard." He chuckled shaking his head. "We've been together for two years and yeah."

I gave him a blank stare, "And yeah? And yeah?! Fucking continue!" Okay so I was a bit excited, no I was ecstatic.

"Details Zav! Details!" He shook his head and nudged me upstairs. "We'll take later love. Go take a nap, you look tired."

I pouted again as he ushered me forward.

I gave him one last hug and planted a kiss on the cheek to a now sleeping Issac on the couch before heading back into the guest room.

As I reached the guest room, I carelessly jumped onto the bed banging my head against the headboard.

I winced in pain before ignoring it and allowing myself to fall asleep.

× Present ×

I slept for about two hours or so before I jolted awake and nearly screamed, it hurt so bad, I just wanted it to stop.

"Please make it stop." I cried out clutching my head in pain.

Memories, of just everything I forgot or just locked them away came flooding back as I cried out in pain.

Finally it just stopped, no more images, no more voices, it just stopped. I was still crying in fetal position and I couldn't seem to stop as I remembered the last couple of days.

How could I have been so stupid? I really lock myself away again?

How could I have let myself be so weak and fragile? How could I do that to Elijah?

My eyes widened as I remembered what the doctor had told me at the hospital. My babies ...

I covered my mouth to make sure no one could hear my sobs, wait why didn't they hear me?