When we fall apart

30

"Celestial we need to talk." Billie says as celestial  hums melodies to her
The hospital room is empty, only filled by Billie and Celestial .
"What is it?" Celestial  asks and gets closer to Billie.
"If I die..." Billie starts to say
"You're not going to die." Celestial  tells Billie, interrupting her.
"I know but if I do..." Billie starts to say before being interrupted again.
"You aren't going to die Billie!" Celestial  says more sternly this time
"Celestial we need to talk about this because there is a good chance that I won't make it so please listen. If I ... if I go... I need to know you're going to be okay... that you'll find love again some day. That you'll have a family and let me go..." Billie says and tears start to fall down her face "You aren't going to die!" Celestial  says again and cries with Billie.
"Celestial, Listen to me!" Billie says getting frustrated, "if I die, if I leave you. You have to promise you'll leave me behind. Promise I'll slowly become a distant memory, a face you think of and smile. I know, I know it's hard to talk about this but we need to be realistic here. If I die, I don't want you to hold on to me. I want you to stay strong, take care of yourself. Be kind to yourself. I want you to drink water and eat lots of good. I want you to slowly move on. Can you at least promise me you'll try if.. if I go?"
"Billie, I don't want you to leave me and I'm going to everything in my power to keep you safe but for some reason i can't, I- I promise I'll try." Celestial  says,
"Billie,
I am so in love with you. I love you today, I'll love you forever. If you have to leave me, if you die.... I'll be lost. I will promise to not hurt myself or treat myself badly because I know you wouldn't want that. As long as you promise to not give up, I know you're tired but please don't die. I can't do this with out you. Please don't give up."

"My dearest  Celestial  , I am tired, I am so very tired but I won't give up. I'll stay strong for you. I love you more than I could ever express. I am scared, I am so scared at the  thought of death and leaving you. I can't sleep with out fearing I won't wake up, when ever you leave my side I am afraid. I don't want to die, but if I do... just know I love you and I tried my best." She tells her girlfriend.  Everyone has seen  Billie fall so close to death  and Billie has felt it too.
This past months of treatments have been working at killing the cancer, but not with out taking a toll on Billie.
This round is a strong one, it could kill what's left of the cancer.
If Billie is strong enough.
She's had so many blood transfusions
and chemicals sent through her body.
Maggie, Patrick, Finneas, and Claudia all wait in the waiting room.
Celestial holds Billie's hand as they start giving her what could be the last round of chemotherapy and Billie can go back home with her family.
Or, she'll fall asleep and never wake up.

They all play the waiting game now.

A/N: 30 chapters done! Lots more to go. I am way way to attached to this story, like idk how I'm gonna finish it or what the outcome will be. As I've said before, I just let it write it's self (I just double check a few things to make sure it's some what accurate to real life)
I hope you know that each comment and each time someone reads this it makes my day. I've been pouring my heart and soul into this story, I can't wait to see what happens next ahaha