The Love, Fire could give (scouting series #1)

CHAPTER 16

"Why?" takang tanong ko

"May na-a-alala ka ba sa past mo anak?" si mom

"well...according to him.. past nya daw ako pero wala naman akong naalalang nakilala ko na siya noon pa. And it means na nawalan ako ng ala-ala" walang emosyong usal ko saka nag punas ng luha

"A-anak just forget it...don't force yourself to remember anything about your past. Hindi iyon makakabuti saiyo." Nag aalalang aniya

"I just wanted to....move on" iyon nalang ang huling sinabi ko saka ako nag paalam para umakyat

Gusto ko munang mapag isa sa ngayon. Ayoko ng balikan ang pag uusap namin pero paulit-ulit ko parin itong nababalikan sa isip ko. Nakakamanhid na sa sobrang sakit na nararamdaman ko. Hindi ko alam kung paano niyang nagawa iyon. Hindi ko parin maintindihan ang lahat. Curious din ako sa past na tinutukoy niyang wala akong kaide-ideya.

I didn't even bothered to tell him the truth about my condition. Hindi man lang niya nagawang tanungin yung side ko.

Tulala lang ako hanggang sa makatulog ako...

Zzzzzz

Nagising ako dahil sa kamay na nakahawak lang sa muka ko. Nakita ko ang nag aalalang muka ni Haz habang nakatingin sakin..

"Ate how are you feeling?" May maliit na boses ang tinig niya

"Ate is fine" I smiled

"You aren't fine" she declared and hugged me tight

Napaiyak ako sa kilos niya. I always prefer to be her shoulder to cry on whenever she was crying of feeling afraid of something. But now....I prefer to be the one who's crying on her shoulder...

"Ate Im here...don't feel bad of people around you, they're all blessings where you can learn from different mistakes they have made" mahabang aniyang hirap na hirap pa

Hindi ko alam kung saan niya natutunan iyon pero natamaan talaga ako. She's growing huh...

"don't shoulder your problems alone....I have shoulders too." She laughed a bit

"Where did you learn that huh?" I still manage to sounds so strong

"Youtube? HAHAHA you're pretending right? Well ate people can't be strong all the time" she hugged me again

Damn this kid! Too smart to handle.... "thankyou baby... for being my shoulder to cry on" I said caressing her hair

"We should go downstairs so we can eat" she said smiling

"Susunod ako---"

"you're coming with me" she said crossing her arms on her chest

"With authority huh?"

"Because your so stubborn broken lady" aniyang ikinagulat ko

"Where did you learn that? Gosh!" Saka ako nag hilamos sa banyo...

I'm just pretty pretending. I'm still a broken pieces... I just dont want this kid to stayed in a bundle of nerves.

"let's go" walang emosyong usal ko

Mag ka-hawak ang kamay na bumaba kami para kumain. Christmas break kaya walang pasok. In short mag papaskong broken hearted.

"You even used haz to make me feel better huh? It doesn't work mom" walang emosyong usal ko

"It does" asik ni haz

"Ayusin mo yung term na used anak.. hindi maganda. Pero parang ganoon na nga" usal ni mom..."help your self anak... you should move forward, you doesn't deserve that---"

"And you're pretty good to gain others attention ate, you dont need that bustard" gulat kaming humarap kay haz

"Anak ng" tanging nai-usal ko

"Haz I don't like your words...stop saying like that. And wag makisingit sa usapan ng matatanda. Learn a good manner" daddy told her

"Sorry" pag kibit balikat pa niya na ikinalaki ng mata nina mommy

"Anak ng... mom! Scold her! Kanina pa yan sa kwarto ko kung ano ano ang sinasabi. Akala mo naman expert at may experience." Inis na singhal ko

"I do have one" kaswal na ani Haz na ikina laki ng butas ng ilong naming tatlo sakanya

"What did you say?" Inis na tanong ni mom

"I do have a boyfriend...its Kio our neighbor" inis ding aniyang nakapag patayo kay daddy

"Haz Krein?" May awtoridad na ani daddy "honey! Fix your child.. god damn it! Anong nangyayari sa mga kabataan ngayon....water please..." pag hilot pa ni dad sa sintido

"Daddy...you're so OA po. I mean may boy friend. Lalaking kaibigan gosh! You guys are out of your mind" asik ni haz na ikina inis ko

"Yang bunganga mo ah" inis na singhal ko sa kanya