I remain unmoving. Nagulat sa narinig. Is that too obvious? How come?
"Don't worry too much, Lou. I can handle myself. Always." She reaches my hand and holds it gently. "He surely feels something for you," I can't breathe properly when she suddenly said those words.
"And as a friend, I just want you to know that I will support your decision. If you feel the same, then so be it, no one's stopping you now." I bit my lip and feel my eyes begin wetting.
"Sure, you said you don't have feelings for him but, I know you're just deluding yourself. Or maybe you have a reason," umiwas ako ng tingin.
"And for that, thank you. But now, you don't have to. I'll be your backbone now." With the words she says, I found myself crying.
I don't know why but I feel at ease with her words. Tila nawala ang malaking bara sa aking lalamunan. Yakap man niya ko habang umiiyak pero masaya ako... My heart is somewhat pleased.
Tahimik lang siya habang niyayakap ako. She's slightly brushing my hair while telling me it's okay.
The music may seem too loud but I know my cries can be heard by others nearby, pero wala na akong pakialam. Ang importante ay mailabas ko ang nararamdaman ko kahit panandalian lang.
Ang sarap lang sa pakiramdam na may taong handang dumamay sa iyo sa kahit ano mang pagkakataon. I'm so lucky to have a friend like her. Ang saya ko dahil nakilala ko siya at naging parte ng buhay ko. Magkaiba man kami sa halos lahat pero hindi naging hadlang sa kung ano mang meron kami ngayon.
I didn't pray to God to have a friend like her. But then, He gave me one. He just gave me what I didn't ask for. He really works in mysterious ways.
I wipe my tears when she loosens the hug. She's smiling brightly now and I can see that through her eyes.
"Promise me one thing," I stop wiping my tears and didn't answer. "Promise me,"
"What is it?"
"You have to admit your feelings. Don't put a mask on, just admit it." I understand what she says. Kahit bago sa akin ay gagawin ko. I want to follow what my gut says.
"I promise." she grins.
"That's good to hear. And, thank you. For making me realized things."
"Ako nga dapat ang magpa-salamat, it's because of you... I have the courage now,"
"No biggies! So, what now? Let's party?!" Nanlaki ang mata ko sa narinig. Seriously?
"May exam pa tayo mamaya! Hindi ka pa nagre-review!" ani ko habang hinihila ang braso mula sa kanya. "Ah! That's... yeah, we should head home I'm kind of sleepy na rin."
"Are you sure it's okay for you to drive? Hindi ka ba lasing?" I studied her reaction pero mukhang nahimasmasan na rin naman siya.
"I'm not drunk, just sleepy. Don't worry I won't get ourselves injure. You have a promise to fulfill pa,"
She said that made me giggle.
Madaling araw na rin naman kaya wala na gaanong mga sasakyan. Mabilis ang naging byahe namin at wala pang 30 minutes naihatid na ako ni Keyla sa dorm.
"Thank you, ingat ka sa byahe." As I bid my goodbye to her. "Yeah, gotta go! See you... later?" I wave and watch her leave.
I clean myself and went to sleep after. Sa school na rin siguro ako mag-aaral just to freshen up, total may nagawa naman na ako kanina.
