inseperable; jaeyong

thirty two

present

taeyong's legs were going to fail him, he knew so. so, in pure terror, he made his way to the table, his hand trembling as he took his seat.

he couldn't possible look at the male in front of him.

this isn't happening. it isn't happening.

'taeyong, look at me.'

no. i can't.

'taeyong, please.'

no, i cant! i seriously can't!

'for 7 years, i couldn't live without you.' jaehyun's warm, deep voiced filled his ears gracefully. like heaven on earth. he wanted to hear that voice for the rest of his life, fuck.

'then why did you leave?' taeyong finally spoke, but his own voice betrayed him, cracking dreadfully.

jaehyun lifted his eyes, watching sorrowfully as his beloved ached in front of him.

it hurt him equally. he knew that the both of their heart's broke the moment they disconnected their hands for the last time.

he remembered the horrible cries of taeyong calling his name at the airport. he remembered breaking down so badly on the plane that he couldn't stop trembling, excusing himself to release his emotions in the bathroom.

it was something he wished nobody went through. it was like an organ in his body was missing.

'i never wanted to. and you know that, don't you?' jaehyun spoke so softly, as if taeyong was a fragile expensive china set.

'i don't know if i can do this.' taeyong stood up abruptly, the tears in his eyes brimming as he exited to restaurant. he could feel jaehyun behind him, chasing after him into the streets.

why was taeyong running? why couldn't he just fucking take it?

there he was, seriously running away from the only source of happiness, like a child. like a coward.

at last, he found himself in an empty sort of area, between two buildings that had nobody in them.

he switched around, out of breath just to see jaehyun standing metres away from him, his eyes down with utter despair as his brows furrowed with confusion.

'why are you doing this?' jaehyun's voice was loud and clear, frustration clear in his tone.

taeyong tried to speak. he needed to say something. anything.

'i come to this city to look for you. to find you and finally reconnect with you. and all you have been doing is running from me. what did i do, taeyong? tell me!' jaehyun's voice was getting louder.

taeyong could hear the agony in his words. he wanted to run into his arms, run his fingers through his hair and tell him everything was ok.

what the fuck was wrong with taeyong?

'why can't i just feel happy once more!? why can't i just see you and feel complete!? i've been hurting for so long and you do this!?' jaehyun's eyes burned with tears. 'if you don't love me anymore, just fucking tell me so i can stop chasing after you!'

'fuck you, jaehyun!' taeyong stomped towards jaehyun, the tears already burning on his cheeks like acid. he laid a harsh shove onto the jaehyun's chest, one that showed complete sorrow. 'you left me in this fucking world alone! left me alone!'

'i didn't want to, did you not hear me!?'

'jaehyun, i'm still hurting!' taeyong at last, like they never did before, connected their eyes. it was one so powerful that it made jaehyun shiver. he could almost feel the energy that was coming from taeyong, a glare so deep that it was cracking jaehyun.

'it still...doesn't even feel real that you're really here. it's like i'm living this life to suffer.' taeyong sobbed. 'i've always suffered. and when i finally found happiness, it got stripped from me like nothing. it makes me think how long it would be until any good thing in my life will end.'

jaehyun grabbed taeyong's hand from his chest, cupping them as his own eyes brimmed with tears.

'i'm so sorry-,'

but before he could continue his apology, taeyong ripped his hands for jaehyun, as if to not fall into the deadly trance. jaehyun's eyes darkened the moment his hands where empty, taeyong retracting from the intense eye contact they both dared not to draw back from.

'you know what?' it was almost frightening the way jaehyun's voice had switched, the tears in his eyes drying up supernaturally. 'i won't bother anymore.'

for some terrifying reason, taeyong felt his already broken heart shatter even more the moment those words were spoken harshly, his eyes lifting back up.

what was he doing!?

he had to reach out to him before it was way too late.

but why was their dark snakey veins pulling him back? he was screaming for help, aching for jaehyun to rescue him.

why?

'goodbye.'

it was the last thing that was said from jaehyun before he switched his heel around, taking large strides away as if he had somewhere to be.

no, i need him. i NEED him!

just like that, taeyong had ruined another thing in his life.