inseperable; jaeyong

thirty eight

taeyong trembled. but not only because he was saturated and cold. but because, standing in the presence of the love of his life had an immense impact on everything from emotionally to physically.

his eyes enlarged, his wet hair covering his eyes as he caught jaehyun's surprised gaze.

'j-jaehyun,' he started, his voice shaky too.

before he could continue to convince jaehyun to stay, jaehyun's first instinct was to drag the boy inside, rushing into his bathroom and grabbing a towel to cover taeyong with and seating him on the nearest seat.

god, even if jaehyun said he wouldn't bother anymore, even his body betrayed him. he couldn't bare to see taeyong in any state
of discomfort. he would do anything to protect him.

jaehyun cursed internally as he wrapped the warm towel around the trembling boy, avoiding eye contact at all costs.

'what are you doing here?' jaehyun questioned in a low voice once he felt as if taeyong was protected enough.

taeyong let his head hang in utter shame, still shiver into the towel.

'i made a m-mistake.' taeyong replied.

jaehyun side eyed the male, internally battling with himself.

'i was selfish.'

taeyong's voice was cracking, his shivering now entirely his anxiety's fault. he had a novel of ways to say how remorseful he was to have pushed his other half away, but the words just wouldn't leave his lips.

instead, his vision was blinded by the burning tears that formed, ready to overfill as his gaze finally met jaehyun's.

jaehyun's face softened the moment their eyes met.

there it was; the electric shock that stunned them like that same night in the empty soccer field under the glowing stairs. their awakening. the night they really felt it.

love.

'i thought that...if i could stop thinking about you and living my life as if you had left me, i could get over it. and that you would eventually get over me.' taeyong began, his voice almost a whisper. 'god...i was wrong.'

jaehyun continued to listen, fighting off the urge to slip the trembling boy into his arms.

'i tried to fall in love again, to really fight off my love for you, i really really did,' taeyong held his heart as if to stop it from burning, the aching sensation. 'but i can't.'

those words coming out of his mouth had jaehyun's eyes brimming with tears. if only taeyong knew that that was exactly how it was for him too.

nobody could satisfy the standard. nobody that wasn't taeyong could reach the into the depths of jaehyun's heart.

'i realised,' taeyong let it out, his head hanging as he retracted his eyes while the tears streamed down his red cheeks. 'i realised that i can't love anybody else...but you.'

jaehyun finally knelt down in front of taeyong, taking the boy's cold hands into his own ones, his own tears releasing as he once again caught taeyong's eyes. he couldn't bare to see taeyong like this.

but taeyong was also a sympathetic crier. the moment he saw a droplet of jaehyun's tears, his heart flipped, mercilessly shattering as he cried harder.

'and if you leave again, i really don't know what i would do, because,' taeyong sobbed. his trembling was too out of control now.

'because i really really love you.'