tw// insomnia, depersonalisation-derealisation, hallucination mentions (please read a/n at the end of the chapter <3)
if insomnia was a person, taeyong would NOT befriend them. because as much as he loved the quiet of his dorm, the emptiness and aching silence at 4 in the morning was not to his liking.
it was too empty.
at last, taeyong officially gave up, picking himself up with pure frustration and stormed into his bathroom.
was anything even real anymore?
his reflection wasn't making the question any easier. he didn't feel as if he was there. nothing seemed real.
his life, it was just series of everyday events. like a simulation; just going through life one day at a time. or like a movie, him as the main character. there was no set feeling as to how he felt,
or if he even had control of anything.
and now with his hallucinations, well that was just the cherry on top.
taeyong continued to stare at his reflections, as if he himself would have the answer to the problems of his universe.
'where are you?'
what type of sane person would question their own destination?
but then again, taeyong felt anything but sane.
'what the fuck am i doing...' he turned on the tap and immediately splashed his face with the freezing water, hoping for it to be a way to snap out of it.
'just one hour of sleep.' he mumbled to himself, completely sure that that was the last thing that was going to occur.
instead, he once again laid, gazing deep into the ceiling, although this head was elsewhere.
why would he just appear? why am i so afraid?
am i in denial or just insane?
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a/n
writer here!
i just wanna state that the topics mentioned are not only for the storyline but something serious that people go through and i have personally gone through (not the love between ty & jh obviously because i've never even fallen in love lmaooo).
but those who are going through depersonalisation, derealisation, insomnia, hallucinations, or questioning whether you're sane/have bad mental health, please know that you are not alone at all. i'm here for anyone that needs somebody to talk to because i know how it feels.
so please please please don't be afraid to msg me. although not at all a licensed therapist or psychologist, i'm still here for anyone to rant or talk to. remember to take care of yourself and put your health as a priority. you are beautiful, loved, and very much real. love you!
- A <3
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