Apocalyptic

Chapter 6

Hours Later: Kuroo's POV

"Hey Tsukishima."

"What."

"No need to be so cheerful. Anyway. We've been driving all day, and night, and most of today. Why don't we find somewhere to rest."

"Why don't we make Kenma drive, and we sleep in the back?" Tsukishima asked with a raised brow. I adjusted the mirror, Kenma peacefully looking out the window. I smiled slightly before shaking my head.

"Well, he doesn't know exactly where we're going. And I mean, we found him in a flipped car so." I said, Tsukishima rolling his eyes.

"Yeah, whatever. That's fine we can stop." He grumbled. I nodded, driving until we came across an old and abandoned neighborhood. I got out with Tsukishima, clearing the area before I went back to the car and told Kenma it was safe. He stuck close to me as we went inside. The house was decent. It would've been a nice place if it were still fully intact. 

"Hey, there's two bedroom." I said as we explored. Tsukishima nodded slowly, his arms crossed over his chest as he walked up next to me.

"Yeah, great."

"Is something wrong with you?"

"Probably." He mumbled, walking into one of the bedrooms. Kenma looked up at me as I smiled slightly and shrugged.

"Well, being in this apocalypse would stress anyone huh?" I said, Kenma nodding. He wandered into the other bedroom, and I followed. He climbed into the bed, fixing the blankets and sheets before stretching. My eyes ended up trailing down his tiny body before I tore my eyes away and shook my head.

Kenma luckily didn't seem to notice me and just climbed into the bed. I tapped my foot slowly before smiling faintly.

"Cold?" I asked, noticing him shiver.

"Uh huh." He said, pulling the blanket over him. It was rather cold in here. There was obviously no power, so not heat. And it wasn't very well insulated. And the blanket had lost a lot of it's softness over probably just being left here for years.

I got into the bed with Kenma, him looking at me before scooting closer for the warmth. I hummed to myself, wrapping my arms around him and pulling him closer. I mean, he was warm too, so it worked. And this felt really nice... a lot better than sharing a bed with Tsukishima if I'm being honest.

Tsukishima and I were both pretty tall, so it wasn't super comfortable sleeping together. But Kenma was a lot smaller, and it made it nice to kind of, I guess cuddle, with him. And he wasn't objecting to anything, so I just yawned and smiled to myself before bed.

Tsukishima's POV

Mm. Of course he went into Kenma's room with him. He probably didn't even spare a second thought to come in here with me. Ugh, it was fucking freezing. And this blanket was useless. I'd need a second one. I got up and went to the extra bedroom. Finding Kuroo and Kenma cuddling again. But real cuddling...

I grit my teeth and walked over, smacking Kuroo on the back of the head. Kenma was asleep, but Kuroo was up.

"Ow! Hey what the hell was that for???"

"Give me your blanket."

"What? Why??"

"Well you clearly don't need it. You have something else." I said, Kuroo slowly letting go of Kenma before sitting up and looking at me.

"Seriously what is wrong with you?"

"Oh I don't know. What's wrong with you?"

"Huh?"

"You've known Kenma for what, 12 hours? And look at you two. And how long have you known me? 12 years?" I said, feeling a bit angry... Maybe sad too. I don't fucking know.

"What's your point?"

"My point is that we have been together for over half the time we've known each other. And you have never slept with me unless it was for sex."

"Well, I... Alright, I guess you're right. And. I'm sorry. You know, maybe it'd be a good idea if we don't date. I mean we will obviously still stick with each other and get to that settlement together. But, just, not as boyfriends." Kuroo said with a small smile. 

I knew that was a good idea. It probably would have been a good idea to have been said years ago. But, something about hearing it after so long made me... I don't know. I refuse to be hurt over this. 

"Yeah.. Now give me the blanket." I mumbled, Kuroo handing it to me. I left the room quickly and went back to my own. I pulled both blankets over me, feeling a little bit warmer at least. Not by much, but it was all I got...

I didn't need Kuroo. He was just some asshole... An asshole who 16 year old me had actually.. loved. Or at least really liked. Those feels dwindled as time went on. But still. He was the first person, and only person, that I've slept with, trusted, and depended on. 

I had willingly let him take my virginity. I followed him around and let him take charge when things got difficult, and we always came out of it alive. When things got worse, we took care of each other. He's all that I had.. And even if he'd still be there until we got to the settlement, I feel like I lost everything that I've ever had as mine for the past 8 years in less than 24 hours. 

I sighed, rubbing my face with my hands in frustration. 

"No, don't you dare fucking be upset over this.." I said to myself,  planting my hands back under the blanket to try and hold in as much body heat as I could. I don't know what Kuroo is thinking. Maybe he saw Kenma and decided he liked Kenma better than me already. 

Well, whatever it is, I don't care... If he decides that, that's his own fucking choice. He's happy, whatever.. But I wasn't. And I can't let this shit affect my mind. If I made even one mistake out there, it could get me killed. I can't be letting my mind wander like this when it needed to be sharp.

Maybe just for the night, I could let my mind think what it'd like. We had already searched and the area was clear. But tomorrow, I'd need to forget all this and get over it. But it might be harder than I thought. Well, lesson learned. The easiest way to survive is to only care for myself. No one else will care for me, so I won't care for anyone else either.