Holding Me Back

Chapter 32

Narrator's POV

As they made love that day, they slept in each other's arms. Worries and stress were erased from their mind as they inhaled each other's scent. Somin woke up, feeling cold. She opened her eyes to see no one by her side. Her eyes saddened, scared that Jongkook was regretting his choice. She quickly put on a shirt that she took from Jongkook's closet.

She went out of his room quietly and looked around for him but he wasn't there. "Where is he?" She mumbled as she glanced at the clock that showed 5pm. She gasped. "I slept for 3 hours?" She exclaimed but her cheeks warmed as she realised why she needed rest. Somin grabbed her phone and was about dial Jongkook but she heard the door open.

She walked towards the sound and found Jongkook with his hands full of bags. "What is all that?" She asked. His eyes widened as he saw Somin. "Ah, you're awake?" He cleared his throat and put the bags aside, changing the subject. Somin raised an eyebrow but decided to play along. "Yeah, I was about to call you," She strutted towards the couch to sit down but she winced as she took a step.

Jongkook worriedly took a glance at her but laughed. She glared at him. "What are you laughing at?" She stated as she carefully sat down. "Are you sore?" He teased her, making her face red. "W...what are you talking about? Shut up a...already," She stammered, avoiding eyecontact.

He smirked and sat by her side. He quickly laid his head on her shoulder as he wrapped his arms around hers. "Why are you acting like a baby?" She was flustered as he wasn't the type to act cute or needy. He scoffed. "Doing this makes me look like a baby? Fine then," He purposely lifted his head off, only to have her force his head back on her shoulder. Jongkook chuckled at her action.

He swiftly took a glance at what she was wearing. She was only wearing his shirt, atleast it covered her thighs. He thought that it would've been dangerous if it wasn't covered. His eyes lingered on her legs for awhile before forcing himself to look away. "Oh? You are wearing my shirt once again without me knowing," Jongkook joked. "What do you want me to do about it? Im wearing it already," Somin slyly answered.

"I don't know. Maybe, take it off," He teasingly replied, only to get a punch from her. He stood up, chuckling and excused himself to change his clothes. Somin then checked her phone. Her eyes widened as she saw countless text messages and notifications from social media.

She checked her text messages, mostly from her family and close friends as they congratulate her. She laughed as it seemed as if it was a marriage announcement and they were congratulating her for it. As she changed her attention to social media, her smile slowly disappeared.

Malicious comments from anti-fans. Her finger automatically clicked the notifications from Instagram. As soon as she saw the negative comments and messages, her heart sank.

@user183829: "What the hell? Jongkook is with Somin? She doesn't deserve him!"

@user288327: "Jihyo is for him!! Not for you, weirdo!"

@user828282: "Didn't know Jongkook's standards were so low. Such a disappointment."

@user238833: "It's not going to last for long. I bet a million dollars."

Without her realising, a tear dropped from her eyes. Her heart twisted out of sadness and anger. She bit the inside of her cheeks, trying to contain her tears. She couldn't help but read those comments.

"Somin, your clothes are literally everywhere in my room," Jongkook's voice echoed through the house. Somin didn't reply as she was still caught up from reading the comments. As Jongkook didn't hear a reply, he went out of his room. He was alarmed as he saw Somin crying silently.

"Somin. What happened?" He quickly went towards her as he knelt down before her. She looked up, gazing into his eyes with tears. He wiped her tears off, full of love and worry but tears kept on rolling down. He saw the phone in her hands so he took it to see what happened.

His eyes flickered with anger. Jongkook turned off the phone and placed it onto the living room table. Somin covered her face with her hands as she sobbed quietly. "Stop. Why are you even reading those? You shouldn't even listen to them. Stop crying. Don't cry," His voice shook as he pleaded.

His heart felt like it got stung by a bee as she wept sadly. He sat beside her and hugged her. She cried into his arms. "Don't cry, Somin. Please," He gulped down his emotions and hugged her tightly. As Somin felt Jongkook tighten the hug, she sobbed loudly.

He silently cursed everyone who made her cry. After a few minutes, he pulled away. Jongkook removed the strands of hair that was covering her face. Her eyes was droopy and sad. Her face was shining with tears.

Jongkook gently wiped her tears with his thumb. "You look ugly," He joked but Somin didn't glare at him like she always do. "Somin..." He called out to her. She still wasn't budging.

"Are you sure you made the right choice?" Her voice was small and thin as it shooked when she voiced out. "What do you mean?" He asked. "By being with me."

"Gosh, Somin. What are you talking about?" Jongkook was offended by the question. "Just answer me," She looked at him for the first time after the emotional breakdown. He ran his fingers through his hair, frustrated by her obvious question.

"Of course, I made the right choice. Can't you see that I'm crazy about you?" He straighforwardly answered. "How do I know that?" Jongkook was flustered as she questioned. "What?" He said in a disbelieving tone.

"Do I have to list it out? Really? I made love to you literally 3 hours ago! I don't just make love to anyone I date!" Jongkook replied with a hint of anger, sadness, disappointment in his tone. Her eyes softened as she heard that.

"Right. I'm sorry," She apologised as she threw her arms around him. "It just sucks to know that there are better choices than me," She whispered softly but loud enough for Jongkook to hear. She pulled away as he sighed.

"There are no better choices than you. Even if some people say there are better choices, to me, you're the best choice I've ever made," He held her hand, intertwining their fingers. A small smile plastered on her face. "You are being abit cheesy these days," Somin pointed it out, teasing him.

"Well, that's what my girl likes the most," He coolly answered, making her smile from ear to ear. Jongkook's heart cooled down as he saw her smiling. As they sat, facing each other with their hands interlocked, Jongkook announced.

"I love you, Somin," He confessed seriously and charmingly. Somin's heart skipped a beat as she heard that. After a few seconds, no response. He looked up to see her frowning and hesitating. Jongkook's eyes saddened as she didn't reply back.

"What's wrong?" He asked, feeling slightly dejected. "No, I..." She trailed off her words and licked her bottom lip. He waited for a few more seconds. "Wait. I'm..." She tried to find the right words but she sighed instead.

Feeling downcasted, Jongkook let go of their hands slowly. With a bitter smile, phe stood up. "It's okay. I'll cook for us dinner," He turned his back on her, hiding his disappointed face. Somin looked at him, regretting her hesitation but she couldn't help it.

Love...was a strong word for her.

Author's Note:

There was a chapter when Jongkook said "I love you" to Somin on the beach but he added "I adore you" so Somin replied with "I adore you too" instead of "I love you too". I'm just putting this out if you're confused with these two sentences!! And again, thank you for 3.4k+ readers <3 Much love