Ninjago Oneshots

Stay With Me (depressed Kai)

Important message at the end

Tw: self harm, depression, mention of suicide

PoV Kai
My hand was shaking as the razor blade neared my already injured arm.

Something in me wanted to cause further damage.

Slice.

Not deep, just enough to draw blood.

Slice.

Deeper. More blood ran down my arm and I caught it with a tissue before it could hit the floor.

The others weren't home.

What if I just...

I looked at my artery.

What if I just...

"Kai, we're home!", someone called from downstairs.

Not today.

I hid the blade and tissue under a CD case that lay under a hoodie.

Then I quickly washed the wounds with cold water and hid them under my black sleeve.

I used to only do this at night but lately the urge to do it had made me do it more often.

The cuts didn't really hurt, but my thoughts sure did.

I was useless. Noone needed me. I could do nothing right.

Suddenly someone opened my door.

"Hey Kai- wait, are you crying?", the voice asked.

Shit, I hadn't noticed that I've been crying.

I quickly wiped my eyes and shook my head.

I was sitting on the floor at this point.

The someone sat down next to me.

I recognized his smell. Cole.

"You don't have to lie to me Kai? What's going on?", he asked.

"I'm fine", I lied.

"Would you rather talk to Nya?"

I nodded.

Cole stood up and left the room, obviously to get my sister.

Tears kept running down my cheeks.

Maybe I should get the blade again...

Just a few more...

"Hey brother", her soft voice cut through my heavy thoughts.

Nya sat down next to me.

A few minutes we just sat there.

Then she moved to sat in front of me.

I was so weak.

Nya carefully took my hand, but I felt nothing.

My whole arm was numb.

"Kai, look at me.", Nya said clear but softly.

I looked into her warm eyes.

"Nya, I'm useless. I only cause trouble and hurt people", I sobbed out.

"That's not true. We couldn't have saved Ninjago without you, not a single time", she smiled.

I winced as she petted my arm, then tried to get up but stopped in her movements.

She looked back at me, now seemingly worried.

"Kai, what's with your arm?", she seemed a little scared.

Then she showed me her hand.

There was blood on the hand that she had used to pet me.

I looked at my arm. The blood has soaked the fabric so much, you could even see it.

"Nya, I'm sorry", I brought out.

"What. Is. With. Your arm?", she growled.

I backed away.

Her expression softened again.

"Please show me Kai. I care about you and I want to help you", she sighed.

I slowly rolled up my sleeve and Nya gasped for air.

"No! Kai, why?!", she yelled.

I had stopped crying, but I was still sobbing quietly.

"I...I hate myself, I'm worthless. I'm an awful person, I deserve this", I sobbed out.

"No you don't, you aren't awful, you are wonderful. Kai, don't you see how amazing you are?!", Nya asked.

She had tears in her eyes. I had made Nya cry.

"You-You're crying. I-I hurt you", I brought out.

Nya shook her head.

Then she ran out of the room.

"No... Stay with me", I cried, putting out my arms.

But it was to late. Nya had left.

Because of me.

Bonus

PoV Nya
*sniff* "Sensei, Kai needs help. He...he said he's worthless and...and he hurt himself. Sensei, I'm scared", I sobbed out.

Wu nodded.

Then he got up from his chair.

"I will talk to him. Don't worry, everything is going to be okay"

Nobody is worthless.

Your skin is not paper, so don't cut it.
Your neck is not a shirt, so don't hang it.
Your life is not a film, so don't end it.
You are special. Never forget that.
~Bill