Ninjago Oneshots

burned out gifted kid (highschool AU)

Tw: depression, self harm, suicide

PoV Morro
I couldn't concentrate, couldn't get anything into my head. Math used to be so easy! Why did I not manage this?!

"You need help?", my cousin Lloyd asked.

I huffed and told him to leave me alone.

I was smart enough to solve this on my own, I needed to!

I put my head down on the table.

Next thing I know my adoptive father told me to wake up.

I lifted my head, the sheet still stuck to my cheek. "You don't have time to snore. There is your homework, do it.", said Wu.

I swallowed thickly. "Yes, Sir.", I replied.

"I offered to help him, but he send me away. He's struggling.", Lloyd suddenly said.

"Fucking cockroach.", I growled.

"Don't insult your cousin, you know he's sensitive. If you're struggling, let him help.", Wu left the room after this.

Lloyd looked over my shoulder.

"That's really easy. You just have to", he then started to explain everything, but I couldn't absorb anything. He was younger than me, why was this so easy for him?!

Eventually I just pushed my chair back, causing him to almost fall.

"You can do it if it's so easy for you, cockroach." , I said, then left the living room and went straight to mine, where I locked the door behind me.

I slid down to the floor and buried my head in my hands.

I used to be so smart, so good for my age. Now I was barely average. Like someone who learned to swim early, but now everyone was swimming and they weren't special anymore, weren't even swimming fast enough.

I wasn't swimming. I was drowning.

Tears started running down my face. Wu liked Lloyd a lot more anyway, he was so much smarter than me. So much better.

In buried my fingers in my hair and pulled.

I was just a failure, I failed everyone.

Even Lloyd.

Wu would be angry at me, again and again.

I was just a failure, I failed myself.

I needed to feel something, needed to feel pain. I deserved it, I was a failure.

I went to my bathroom and pulled out a razor blade.

Then I sat down and stared at my sleeve. I pulled it up. First I only created little scratches, then I let the blade go deeper.

I was a failure. I failed everyone.

Blood hit the white floor.

I was one cut away from being free. Suddenly there was a knock on the door.

"Morro? I want you to apologize to Lloyd. He was just trying to help.", Wu called.

I sobbed loud and hard.

"I don't want his fucking help! Go away!", I yelled.

Wu knocked harder.

"Morro, you're coming out this instant!", he yelled.

"FINE!", I yelled. Then I opened the door. Blood was trickling down my arm. Wu immediately stared at it.

"Morro-", he started, but I cut him off with a loud sob.

"I know you hate Lloyd, but that is no way to punish us.", he then said. I was shocked.

"Do you really need the attention that much?"

So that's what I am to him. Am attention seeking whore.

"I fucking hate you. All of you. I wish you were just gone and out of my face for once!", I sobbed out, but it wasn't true. I only wished for myself to be out of their faces and be gone. I just hated myself.

Wu drove me to the hospital where they stitched up my arm and told us to go to a therapist.

But I had already made my decision.

PoV Lloyd, 5 days later

The news hit me pretty hard.

They found Morro. He went for a walk yesterday evening and didn't come home, now the police had called. He had jumped off the highway bridge, as the driver of the car that hit him told them.

Wu also found Morros last letter in his room, where he apologized to all of us and told us how much he hated himself and that we were better off without him.

It hurt. Knowing that he wasn't coming back hurt.

I had loved Morro like a brother. I also couldn't understand, how he couldn't see how awesome he was.

Why did he do that?

Was it...my fault? But I didn't want this!

I just wanted to help. Why wasn't I able to help?!

Morro didn't deserve to feel like this.

I knew Wu felt really guilty, he was bad at hiding it. Who could blame him? He raised both of us.

He loved Morro. Morro was like his son and now he was gone...