Ablaze |Season 1|

Chapter 43

OCTAVIA

HOW SHOULD I make her fall for me?

I woke up with a light feeling on my chest, knowing that I finally accepted what has been confusing me. It is not easy that I happen to like a girl, but how can I not accept something that made me feel like I am living my life?

I shook my head and chuckled softly with the endless thoughts of her in my head. I don't know what's more insane: liking a girl, or immediately obsessing her like a creep right after I gladly embraced the feeling?

I am certain that this won't be an easy ride, and I am still contemplating about taking the risk of losing my sanity once again, out of pain, but... all I know is that, she is worth it.

She is worth the risk, and she's worth all the best things that can happen to her. To us.

Tumayo na ako mula sa pagkakahiga para puntahan siya sa kabilang kwarto at gisingin siya. Hindi ko na siya naabutan kagabi dahil nakatulog na ako. Late siguro siya nakauwi dahil sa work niya.

I gently knocked at the door. "Ferish?" I called her name, but there's no reponse. Naghintay ako ng ilang segundo para pagbuksan niya ako, pero wala pa rin.

I opened the door out of instinct. Pagkapasok ko pa lang ay wala akong naabutan kaya ginala ko ang paningin para hanapin siya. Sukat doon ay nakarinig ako ng lagaslas ng tubig mula sa banyo kaya nakahinga ako nang maluwag.

I sat down at her bed and her natural sweet scent of her in the room almost made me insane. Ang bango masyado. Napahinga ako nang malalim at hinintay na lang siya na matapos maligo. I want to see her first in the morning before doing all the things that need to be done, such as cooking breakfast for us.

Her favorite red pillow smells like her. I didn't expect how the mere fabric of her stuff can be so comforting. Until now, I am still thinking on how should I properly confess to her without feeling awkward. I might make her feel uncomfortable, and that's the least that I want to happen.

I want her to feel safe with the confession that I will make; I don't want her to feel that it is her responsibility to reciprocate what I feel. Ayoko rin naman na layuan niya ako at mailang sa akin. That might literally kill me.

I was in the middle of having an inner battle with myself, when she finally went out of the batthroom. I didn't know what happened but I felt like my throat went dry at the sight of my captivating girl.

She's only wearing a black fitted sando, which is rare to see... but it emphasized her sexy figure. Naka-pants din siya na white. Nakatalikod siya sa akin at nagpupunas ng buhok gamit ang puting towel, and I swear, I can feel the familiar heat of wanting to own every bit of her.

I want to kiss her.

She's gently humming that sounds too soft in my ears, like a lullaby that's enchanting, making me want to fall asleep with the absolute solace that no one can ever make me feel; it is the kind of feeling that I would love to embrace, and I knew from the deepest depths of me that... it is her. I never want someone else with her.

It felt like I finally found the lost pieces of my being, all because of her.

I cleared my throat to let my presence get known, and she immediately turned into my direction. Her eyes adorably grew wide and the next thing she did made chuckle out of amusement. Nagtakip siya ng katawan gamit ang towel.

It's not like I didn't have what she has. I perfectly know.

But then, I noticed something from her chest. Pinagkatitigan kong maigi dahil baka mali ang nakikita ko, pero parang may... bakal?