Toxicity

52

Timeline: 3 days
DEREKS POV
Amelia has been miserable. Meredith and I tried to get her discharged but she had no interest in it. She didn't get out of her bed and she barely ate anything. Link came by everyday and she barely said a word to him too. I had her lunch in my hand and I opened the door. Amelia was facing the wall as I closed the door.
"I brought you lunch," I said.
"Okay," she sniffled.
"Hey," I said softly, "don't cry. What's wrong?" She rolled over and looked at me.
"What's for lunch?" She changed the subject.
"Hamburger and fries," I said and handed her the bag.
"Cool," she said.
"Link said he's coming after school today," I said, "he said he texted you."
"I don't know where my phone is," she shrugged.
"It's probably in here somewhere why don't we look?" I asked.
"I don't care," she shrugged and picked at the hamburger.
"Can you please eat lunch?" I asked.
"I am," she said.
"Okay," I said.
"Don't you have work to do? You probably have a million other things more interesting than me," she said.
"I'm not working this week," I said.
"Fun," she said and pushed her plate to the side.
"Are you excited to see Link?" I asked. She didn't say anything and rolled back over.
"Did Link do something?" I asked.
"No," she said crying, "Derek leave it alone."
"Amelia what's wrong?" I said. She started crying more and I got up and wrapped my arms around her.
"Please let it go," she cried.
"Please talk to me," I begged, "we're all worried about you."
"I'm so ugly," she said quietly.
"What are you talking about?" I said and looked at her.
"Yeah I'm sure if you were Link you'd find the slightly black eye and busted lip attractive too," she said.
"Amelia you know he loves you more than anything in the world," I sighed, "he comes to visit you every single day. Doesn't that mean something?"
"I feel so ugly and ashamed," she said quietly.
"Amelia," I frowned.
"What if I'm pregnant?" She said.
"What?" I said.
"I mean Ryan didn't use a condom," she said, "what if?"
"We'll cross that bridge when we get there," I said.
"Do you know what that would do to Link and I?" She said crying, "I'm so scared."
"But there's a chance you could not be pregnant," I said, "did you take your birth control that day." She nodded.
"Okay," I said.
"I feel like nothing," she said.
"You're not nothing," I said.
"I think Link's going to leave me," she said.
"Why would you say that?" I said.
"Because everything is getting worse. If I was him I'd leave me. I wouldn't want to be with me. I wouldn't have even wanted to been with me 3 years ago and I feel 10 times worse than I did then," she said.
"He's not going to leave you," I said.
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I felt my phone buzz and it was from Link.
"Can I come up?" Link sent.
"I'll meet you in the lobby," I sent. Amelia hasn't spoken a word to me since we talked. I walked downstairs and saw Link in the lobby. He had takeout from Amelia's favorite place. Amelias an idiot thinking he would leave her.
"She okay?" He asked.
"She's having a hard day," I said.
"Can I still see her?" He asked.
"You can," I said, "but be gentle. She might not want to talk."
"Okay," he said, "did she eat today?"
"A little yeah, so she might eat some of that," I said.
"That's good," Link said.
"Can you do me a favor?" I said.
"Yeah sure," Link said.
"It's nothing you did, but can you reassure her how much you love her. Because I know you love her. Meredith knows you love her. And everyone knows you do love her, so can you just tell her that today, because she really needs to hear it," I said.
"Of course," Link said.
LINKS POV
Derek said Amelia was having a really bad day. I opened the door and she was facing the wall.
"Hey Amy," I said.
"Hey," she said softly.
"I brought you some food," I said.
"Thanks," she said. I put it on the table and I sat in one of the chairs by the walls so she had to look at me.
"I love you," I said.
"I love you too," she said.
"Do you wanna talk about anything?" I asked.
"No," she said.
"Okay," I nodded. We sat there in silence for a few minutes. My eyes never left hers, and she did the same. I knew she was hurting. I could see it in her eyes.
"Hey uh," Amelia started.
"Yeah?" I said.
"Can you help me up?" Amelia asked. I nodded and helped her sit up. She grabbed my hands as she stood up.
"Ow," she winced in pain.
"What hurts?" I asked and kissed her forehead.
"My thigh," she said, "it's fine I just really have to use the bathroom."
"Okay," I said and helped her walk to the bathroom. She closed the door so I waited on the other side. After a few minutes I heard the toilet flush and the sink running. The door opened and Amelia was crying.
"Honey," I frowned.
"I'm fine," she said and tried to push past me but I knew she was too weak. I grabbed her waist and she tried fighting me back to the bed.
"Let me do it!" She cried as she started pushing me away.
"Okay okay," I said. She climbed back into the bed and faced away from me. I frowned as I sat down.
AMELIAS POV
I haven't said anything to Link in 2 hours. I'm surprised he's still here. I looked over my shoulder and he was looking at me.
"H-hi," I said.
"Hi," he said.
"I'm sorry," I said.
"It's okay," he said.
"It's not," I said and faced him.
"You're having a bad day, it happens," he said.
"Yeah this day is pretty awful," I sighed.
"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked.
"Are you doing to leave me?" I said as my voice was shaking. He looked taken back by the question so maybe I was wrong.
"Are you kidding? No I'm not leaving you," Link said.
"I just," I started crying, "I feel so ashamed. And so ugly. And worthless. I can't even do anything. I can barely walk to the bathroom by myself because my one leg is so bruised. I pretty much have a black eye. I know I'm not pretty anymore, and I'm probably not fun to be around because I can't will myself to do anything."
"Amelia. I love you more than life itself. What happened to you wasn't your fault. It was Ryan's fault. It was nothing you did, and I'm so sorry that happened to you. You are still beautiful because beauty is inside and out, which for the record you're still very beautiful on the outside despite what you're saying. I'm never leaving you. I'm here for you 100% of the way. I was here last time, and I'm here this time. Wouldn't it be more fun having me carry you to the bathroom than you limping anyway?" Link said. I chuckled as I wiped my tears.
"It could be fun," I chuckled and he laughed.
"I love you so much," he said.
"I love you too," I smiled.
"Can I kiss you?" He asked. I nodded as he stroked my cheek and kissed me passionately. We were okay.