Toxicity

4

TW: abuse
MEREDITHS POV
Derek was really worried about Amelia and Ryan's relationship. I was starting to get worried too. She was acting weird, and talking less. She spent a lot of time in her room alone, or only out with Ryan. Derek had to go in at 4am this morning which left me to wake Amelia. I walked down the hallway and opened her door.
"Amelia," I said softly. I rubbed her back and she rolled over and sounded like she was in pain.
"Amelia?" I said.
"I'm awake," She said.
"You okay?" I asked.
"Just tired Mer," Amelia said.
"You sounded like you were in pain," I said.
"Did Derek put you up to this?" Amelia asked.
"Well he said Ryan pushed you yesterday," I said, "Amelia if this is happening often you can talk to me, or Derek, or someone. You shouldn't go through this."
"I'm not going through anything," Amelia said, "I'm fine."
"Okay," I said, "well it's time to get up for school."
"I'll be down in a few minutes," Amelia said. I left and I was worried too, maybe Derek wasn't being super over protective. Maybe something was going on. I don't know. I don't like to jump to conclusions because she's really fragile. Her mother kicked her out last year when she was 15 because she found her using drugs and they've barely talked since. I feel bad for her. I hope nothing is going on because that girl doesn't need more. She's been through enough. I can't imagine being kicked out and sent off to rehab as a 15 year and barely talking to half my siblings. It's awful.
"What do you want for breakfast?" I asked as she walked into the kitchen.
"I'll just take a granola bar," she said and walked to the pantry.
"Okay," I said. Her phone buzzed and she looked over at it and smiled.
"Ryan?" I asked.
"Oh no um this friend from school," she said.
"A friend?" I said. Amelia really didn't have many friends besides Ryan I guess. It was good that she was making friends.
"He's in my spanish class," she said.
"That's nice," I said.
"Yeah," she said, "I gotta go, bye Mer."
"Bye Amelia," I said.
AMELIAS POV
I got in the car and looked at Ryan.
"I'm sorry about yesterday," he said.
"You owe me," I said.
"I have oxy for later," he said.
"Why do you can get high and hit me?" I said as I grabbed a cigarette.
"Amelia I didn't mean it," he said.
"You always say that," I said as I lit the cigarette and blew the smoke out the window.
"Is this because of your stupid brother?" He said.
"Stop calling him stupid!" I said.
"Why are you in such a bitchy mood gosh," he said.
"Why are you so physical lately?" I said back.
"God shut up," he said.
"Whatever," I said.
"Are we doing oxy at my house later or no?" He said.
"Yeah sure," I said.
"I'll see you later," he said.
LINKS POV
I got off the bus and I saw Amelia walking in the parking lot alone, and smoking. She stopped at the garbage and threw it out before walking over to me.
"You know that stuff is like really bad for you," I said.
"It's only when I'm stressed," she said, "Don't worry about it."
"Can you hangout tonight?" I asked.
"Uh I can't I have something tonight," she said awkwardly.
"Oh okay," I said.
"Sorry," she said, "next week?"
"Yeah sure," I said.
"Cool," she said.
"Amelia," we heard. I looked up and saw Ryan standing at her locker.
"I gotta go," she said quickly.
"Okay," I said.
"See you in spanish," she said.
"See you," I said. She walked over to him and she was starting to look more and more miserable each day.
AMELIAS POV
I was taking a spanish test and all I could think about was Link. He was so sweet. He was a million times nicer than Ryan was. Link was just a friend. I finished my spanish test and handed it in and sat back down. I looked over and Link smiled at me. He was cute. I'll give him that. Definitely easy on the eyes. The bell rang and I ran out before Ryan could see me talking to him.
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"You ready?" Ryan asked as I closed my locker.
"Yeah," I said. I grabbed my stuff and we walked out to the car. We drove back to his house since his parents weren't home. He unlocked his door and we walked inside.
"What do you want to do first?" He asked as we walked into his bedroom.
"Hm?" I said as he came over and kissed me passionately. He picked me up and pushed me back on the bed as we started making out. I felt his hands unzip my jeans and I stopped kissing him.
"Do we have to today?" I asked.
"What? Why?" He said confused as he unzipped my jeans.
"Ryan I'm just not in the mood," I said.
"Amelia," he said and started kissing me again.
"I don't want to," I said.
"Why because of that stupid boy?" He said and pulled my jeans off.
"Ryan stop," I said.
"Why because of Link?" He said.
"Ryan," I said.
"Stop thinking about him," he said as he pulled at my shirt.
"Stop using him against me!" I said.
"Stop talking," he said and kissed me as he pushed me down into his bed, and I knew he wouldn't stop.
DEREKS POV
"Did you talk to her?" I asked Meredith.
"Yes, she said nothing was going on," Meredith said, "I tried."
"Do you believe her?" I asked.
"No," Meredith said.
"He's so bad for her," I sighed, "is she with him right now?"
"Yeah," Meredith said. The door opened and Amelia walked in. She was crying. She was all messy and I don't know what happened. She was supposed to be with Ryan.
"Amelia?" I said.
"Oh shit you're home," she said as she froze.
"Amelia honey what's wrong?" Meredith said.
"Nothing," she said, "nothing it's nothing."
"Amelia," I said.
"Bad day," she said.
AMELIAS POV
I told him I didn't want to, but he did anyway. I hate him.