rationalized love
I've always been alone,
I've tried falling in love with others,
But that love was always misplaced, abused, or used against me.
I'm too cautious now,
One sign of bad behaviors, bad personality traits, or whatever,
I drop any feelings that had grown for said person,
I put my walls up,
I make sure it is hard for them to ever see the real me.
I push them away technically.
It is hard for me to love,
To find the right person to entrust my heart with.
It is very hard for me to do such a thing,
To be truly vulnerable with someone,
I rather just hide that part of me,
Then let someone see that side of me.
I tried rationalizing it.
But, I never could make sense of any of it.
Love is a dangerous weapon to me.
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YOU ARE READING
Tarnished Beauty
PoetryYou and I, we have different stories and that's what makes us all individually unique. This is just a continuation of mine- where I try and fix myself, relapsing along the way. I hope this gives you hope or whatever you need to survive.
